I had such a fun day today. everything was cool, I was in a great mood, having the best day in awhile (save for forgetting to eat for HOURS and getting murderously cranky).
then I saw some video of me, shot today. that absolutely squashed my good mood and basically ruined my good day. it was horrifying to see what a behemoth I am, and how my face doesn't even look cute anymore. so completely discouraging. I can't even DEAL with it now. this is WHY I tell my camera-happy family to NOT TAKE PICTURES OF ME OR TAPE ME UNAWARES. it just trashes my self-worth. even though I know that's silly and it shouldn't, it DOES all the same. until I feel better about myself and I can handle it, keep your cameras, etc, AWAY from me. WHY can't people respect that?!!!
I'm sure I'll be fine in a few days, but right now, I just want to die. I hope I can sleep tonight.