finally got brave...ish.

I got on the scale yesterday morning. ye gads. I know I've lost a bit of weight since giving sugar and grains the ol' heave ho, but I'm still up almost 15 lbs from my what...two months of carbauchery?! goddamn! at least I stopped it before I gained ALL of the weight I'd lost. I'm so mad at myself though. it took me 10 months to lose 32 or so lbs, and 2 months to gain half of it back. shocking.

I'm still being good foodwise. I think I just need to look at it from a health perspective and just do occasional weighing. and, as I say repeatedly, exercise more.

anyway! I'll check in more often. hope everyone's doing wonderfully well. :)

boop boop

yesterday, my sister and I blew off almost an entire day of work (save for maybe an hour) to go to the beach. this particular beach is secluded, so in my current fear of public bathing suit scrutiny state, I was in favour of it. trouble is, it's at the bottom of a rather large cliff. then there's the barnacles, but that's another story. anyhow, for the first while, it was glorious! the water is super salty, so you're buoyant to the point where even your feet want to spring out of the water. and there wasn't a soul around, except for literally dozens of eagles circling overhead.

at first.

first, a couple of boats moored themselves not too far away. ok, fine, I thought, I can't make out their faces so I don't really care. then some climbers came. THEN the huge fracas from the coast guard. two helicopters, the hovercraft (going at unearthly speeds), AND the coast guard boat. we thought someone must have been reported missing, and my sister's town is pretty small, so she was worried it was someone she knows. it turns out they were looking for a fugitive, who happens to be her friend's stepson (though she hadn't been in touch with him much for years), and apparently he's wanted on suspicion of murder! ugh, the whole thing just makes me feel ill, apparently the case is pretty big news, and pretty gruesome.

anyhow.

everything is peachy keen on the food front, at least. :)

interesting thing this time around. generally, I'm a late night eater. since re-starting LC, I'm pretty disinterested in food later, and genuinely don't feel hungry at all after dinner. thank goodness. I was getting good at eating late again. :)

I'm still not exercising enough, and getting annoyed. I don't know why I seem to think it's soooooo difficult to get the time in when I have NOTHING but spare time lately. pffft. my sister has a wii fit, and talk about fun. I wish I had one!

anyhow...here's a little something that I thought was kinda funny! so cute.

ok, really back. day one yet again!

heh.

I'm finally back on it. last time I tried to go back, it was with resistance for some stupid reason, like I hadn't gained back enough weight yet or something equally idiotic. but I feel accepting and better. I'm tired of retaining all this water.

my sister was given a huge package of homemade beef jerky (she's back on the wagon too, so my in-person support system is back, yay!) and gave me some. pretty excited about that. I'm thisclose to buying a dehydrator, I think it would be nice to be able to make some nice jerky.

our last bout of the season was this saturday. I've been depressed which = me being super lazy and eating starch, so this was a shock to the system to be skating and generally being in motion so much in one day. most of it on concrete. which isn't good. anyway, was I SORE when I got up on sunday! must do more skating and get back on it. anyway, the bout was good, setup was a breeze, everything was cool. I feel like I'm losing my passion for it though, and that freaks me out. we're due for a month-long break, and I hope that it'll rejuvenate me. ESPECIALLY since it'll start being cooler in our practice spaces!

so yeah, there it is. back on it. I'm thinking I want to lean more on the primal side of things, but the important thing is that I'm back. :)

*knock...knock...knock*

helloooooo? *crickets*

I'm not dead, but I've been stumbling, big time, and feeling a combination of shame and total un-wanting of accountability. sigh. I wasn't getting the results I used to get with low-carb, and was just frustrated and feeling like there wasn't any sweetness or gratification in any area of my life, so something, unfortunately, had to give. I hadn't realized I was feeling deprived. now to work thorough all that.

I'll update more often now! hope everyone's well and doing less dietary damage to themselves than I have been as of late. this is no excuse, but we've had an INSANE heat wave here, and (and I have no idea why) when I feel sick from the heat, a bit of sugar helped. gah! the wave is now over though. time to at least start picking up the pieces. I'm not eating crap at every meal, and am really feeling the extent of the degree to which grains ruin my life. so that's something to take from it, I guess. babble babble babble or what?

I'm also confused about a guy, but that's not news...they generally confuse me. I thought I'd have it figured out by this time, but nooooo.

oh well, whatever! trying to work on getting better habits back. and to not make excuses. I effed up. oops! I need to start being better. at least I'm doing better than going an entire year without even trying. right? :)

whoops!

ok, here's what I ate yesterday as I remember it (not in any particular order):
soup
nuts
chicken
homemade LC chocolate custard
eggs
cheese

annnnd today:
eggs w/jalapeno jack cheese

super busy day at work...

...and now I'm just FRIED from tiredness. gabba gabba what?

breakfast:
eggs
cheese

snack:
cocoa nuts

lunch:
buffalo wings
iced espresso w/cream and sweetener
nuts

dinner:
homemade veggie soup
chicken

ok, let's do this!

I have been SUPER lazy this past week, not just with the blogging. it's definitely not working for me, I feel pretty gross. I wonder why it's so hard to break bad habits and SO easy to break good ones?

breakfast:
steak
egg

lunch:
steak
salad (which ended up being disgusting, so I didn't eat it)

snack:
few nuts
bit of chicken
whole bunch of cocoa roasted nuts

dinner:
chicken
broccoli
butter

during meeting snack:
more of those nuts, even though I ate enough to make me feel unwell earlier...duhhh.
few snow peas

...and I'm back!

...almost. :)

menu tracking to begin again tomorrow, yay! I want to try to eat more soup this week. so I'm making chicken stock RIGHT NOW, and have my veggies ready to go so I can make some tomorrow.

anyhow...I missed you! ;)

still lazy.

I'm taking a few more days off of food logging. :) back in a bit!

yeah, I'm lazy!

and am, clearly, taking the weekend off of logging my food. still on plan though. :)

hope you're having an awesome weekend!

so it appears to be friday yet again

I'm at work. it's sports day at the school I was assigned to, and MAN is it quiet. like...nothing to do. not only that, but the one task I had to do, i can't, thanks to a network issue. oh joy. I'm actually BORED, and that doesn't happen often.

breakfast:
egg
bit of leftovers (chicken, mashed cauliflower, gravy)

snack:
nuts
chocolate (90% of course)

lunch:
chicken wings
iced espresso

dinner:
see breakfast, minus egg

snack:
chicken wings

the good ol' healing itch has settled in on the tattoo. good LORD.

breakfast:
leftover turkey & cheese (like...a few tablespoons' worth)
lemon tart

lunch:
chicken wings
iced espresso w/cream & sweetener
cheese
strawberries

dinner:
chicken
mashed cauliflower
gravy (thickened with thickenthin and cream)
lemon tart

is it wednesday already? good lord.

no work today, but definitely work on friday. possibly tomorrow too, hopefully!

if you're on facebook, I HIGHLY recommend becoming a fan of "Laughing when someone falls". the videos are horridly funny!

breakfast:
eggs with super fricking hot, membrane-searing chipotle chicken sausage (ye gads) and cheese
couple of walnuts
square of chocolate (in my tired state, I thought this might cool my mouth! HAHAHA, what an idiot. it actually did kind of work.)

lunch:
yogurt
nuts
chocolate

I went to a wake. you can call it a celebration of life, but a funeral is still a funeral. my eye spigots are a bit leaky still. :(

"snack":
iced espresso w/cream & stevia

dinner:
turkey taco salad (taco spiced ground turkey, cheese, sour cream, salsa, lettuce)
lemon curd/almond shortbread tart

dues-day

I'm SO tired today! it's too warm to sleep with my window closed, and as it turns out, I'm a bit of a light sleeper. booooo. there's a lot of random noise at inconvenient times.

breakfast:
tall decaf whole milk latte
starbucks sausage breakfast sandwich without the english muffin
to which I added:
cheese
bacon bits
avocado
bit of SF ketchup

lunch:
couple squares of dark chocolate
handful of nuts

snack:
iced espresso w/cream and stevia
few strawberries
hwc
(I bought strawberries and couldn't resist them!)

dinner will consist of bbq chicken (no bbq sauce), smokies, veggies, cheese (HALLOUMI, mmmmmmm), and i'm making a variant of a lemon curd tart (as seen on the wonderful Hobbiton Hankerings, possibly with whipped cream. :)

(listed already in case I forget or get the lazies. will edit for accuracy if anything changes!)

yay work!

I'm using the term "work" loosely. I'm filling in at a school where the secretary doesn't like much of her own stuff done, so here I am zoning out, genuinely concerned about my awakeness for the day. ha!

my tattoo is awesome. I will post pics when it is less red. I absolutely made the right choice of artist, and I'm so happy!

I'm calling a mulligan on yesterday's post. I was actually pretty good on plan all day, and then after the tattoo (which had me seated in front of a full length mirror for 3 or so hours, and let me tell you, that was traumatic and discouraging), I had a few handfuls of tortilla chips. ARRRRGH! I would say "I don't know WHY I did that", but it was this: completely counterproductive self-medication. that mirror was upsetting.

anyway.

breakfast:
pumpkin "loaf"
hwc
small piece of cheese

lunch:
chicken wings
iced espresso w/cream & stevia
few nuts, <1 square of chocolate

dinner:
steak
salad w/ranch dressing
avocado, salsa, sour cream

dessert? I guess?:
stick of pepperoni

ack!

gottarunin20minutesnotreadybadhairgonnahaveleaguephotosandthe
bouttodayandimsotiredsomeoneshootme!

breakfast:
bacon
eggs
two bites of pumpkin loaf (trying to be accountable here)

snacks (another write off day...not prepared):
strawberries
raspberries
blueberries
couple of handfuls of potato chips
pizza (with less than half of the crust

ok, so yeah...another somewhat of a writeoff day, due to my own poor planning. I'm not condoning my own cheating, but all I can do is what I never did before: get right back on the next day. at least I was busy all day and barely sat down at all over the course of 12 hours!

whoops, forgot to blog! :D

I have pumpkin loaf in the oven so I can have some non-starch laden snack-age this weekend. this stupidly busy weekend...ack.

breakfast:
yogurt
couple of strawberries
nut bar

later:
americano w/cream & sweetener (does anyone count coffee as a snack? I've asked this before, I think. I personally wouldn't, but would YOU? :) )

lunch:
bacon
cheese

dinner:
steak
sausages
veggies
pumpkin loaf (which ended up more like a gooey cake, very good but not the portable snack I was aiming for) with HWC

power OUT!

a car accident knocked the power out in my 'hood for HOURS. weirdness right here: before I went to bed, I set my cell phone as a backup alarm. I NEVER, EVER do that, and it's a good thing I did, even though I woke up in time. stupid drivers. I hope nobody was hurt.

I actually got called into work today, and the school had no power until about 20 minutes ago, apparently. so yeah...school's out today.


breakfast:
nut bar
yogurt

lunch:
bbq chicken wings (not the best option)
cheese
red pepper
strawberries (ok, 1 strawberry!)
americano w/cream & sweetener

snack (just noticed: habit to eat something right after work. must stop):
cheese
few strawberries

dinner:
steak
cheese
red pepper
nut bar

ugh, june 3 already???

this year is going too quickly. it's freaking me out.

I also am finding my referee schedule to be burning me right the hell out. it was all downhill once the teams started asking us to come to their practices, when we already have two per week of our own, plus league scrimmages. blah.

breakfast:
bacon
eggs
1 mini babybel cheese

lunch:
iced espresso w/cream & sweetener
cheese
handful of nuts

snack:
few walnuts
cheese

dinner:
tiny bit of leftover turkey and cheese
salsa
yogurt
nut bar

I seem to have the "please give me shit" neon sign above my head lit over the past few days. either that, or I'm just being a wimp, which is also possible-bordering-on-likely.

I've also been really lazy about exercise for the past week. if I'm feeling really down, I just can't get up the energy to do it, and it's frustrating, because exercising would, of course, help. bah.

just FYI: coconut oil in hot drinks can give a creamy mouthfeel. coconut oil in cold drinks DOES NOT. hahaha! additionally, yogurt in a smoothie/protein shake is delicious...less so when coconut oil has been added.

breakfast:
smoothie (non-homogenized organic yogurt, half scoop of greens, almond milk, coconut oil, whey protein powder, cocoa, stevia, pinch of salt, ice, splash of HWC)
few walnuts

lunch:
chicken
cheese
tomatoes
bacon bits

dinner:
turkey
salsa
sour cream
lettuce
cheese
pecans
chocolate

monday yet again!

suffice to say, yesterday was a gong show. as I may have mentioned before, it was the Bad Shit Tattoo Party, a fundraising effort for safe injection sites. cheap tattoos by amazing artists at a very reputable shop. we thought ok, go down there, be done in 3 hours.

WRONG.

from arriving at the lineup until leaving with new ink took almost 8 hours. yup, EIGHT. some people were getting 4 tattoos at once, and that's what kept things s-l-o-w. so here's the math: $25 + 8 hours = 1 ninja star tattoo by the super awesome dave green.

locational dietary disaster: the shop is on a stretch of road where there was literally NO food options for a grain avoider like myself. I have the odd blood sugar issue at the best of times, and as an FYI to any tattoo virgins thinking of getting one, you cannot get one hungry. going in with low blood sugar can cause you to faint once you're done. so...yeah. the owner of the place bought everyone pizza, which unfortunately was vegetarian. and this was after 6+ hours of waiting. the other food available up until that point was little chocolate chip cookies. and I'd unfortunately had too much fruit in the morning. so suffice to say, yesterday ended up being a write-off, though really, it could have been worse, not to justify my own bad choices. I had the equivalent of maybe 2 normal sized chocolate chip cookies, and a piece of pizza that I threw away a good chunk of the crust of.

I'm getting tattooed again on sunday, but this time I'll be prepared.

breakfast:
protein shake (unsweetened vanilla almond milk, small scoop of greens, cocoa, coconut oil, stevia/inulin packet, few drops vanilla stevia, whey protein powder, ice)

lunch:
steak
coconut oil
handful of bacon flavoured Just The Cheese baked cheese (SO good)
americano w/cream & sweetener

dinner:
chicken
handful of walnuts
1 square chocolate

argh...the hormones are the ones driving today!

right.

breakfast:
bacon
eggs

snack:
nuts
chocolate

lunch/snacks (post bout, I was starving and made bad choices...)
mexican dip (all legal) with about 4 tortilla chips
couple of small handfuls (literally about 2, maybe less) of chips and plain popcorn
small piece of cake (and I really do mean a small piece)
tried to balance with a couple of strawberries, some ham, and cheese...d'oh.

because I'll be all over the place tomorrow, I won't be logging my menu. I don't intend to eat crap again, but if I do, back on the wagon on monday. le sigh.

dinner:
piece of steak cooked in coconut oil
chicken thigh
salad w/ranch
(figured I'd go with fat and meat to get back on track, argh)
nuts & chocolate

later:
some coconut custard, was testing a recipe.

thinking of the weekend with knocking knees

I am! too much going on, as per usual. I have practice tonight and sunday night. the kicker is that my toe blistered, then the skin under the blister blistered. I don't know if I'll be able to skate at all tonight. but the practice space tonight is cool at least, so maybe I'll just go, see what I can do, and bail if my toe is killing me. I have the option to not go at all on sunday. maybe I'll take it. dither, dither.

saturday, I have a scrimmage to ref, then a birthday party, then another party after the birthday party. I'm tired just thinking of it.

sunday, it's my mom's birthday, then I have to RUSH out to get a tattoo, then possibly practice again. gah. every damn year, there is too much going on on her birthday and it sucks. there's also a concert I want to go to that night, but I think I'm the only one who wants to go out of all my friends. meh.

breakfast:
yogurt w/brownie bits and nuts
cheese

lunch:
cheese
pork rinds w/sour cream
weird coffee protein shake (ice cubes, instant decaf, cocoa, HWC, half and half, whey protein powder, sweetener)

dinner:
peppers
cheese
weird protein shake (see lunch, minus coffee, plus coconut oil and peanut butter)

later...
1 small handful of popcorn, I'm not sure how that's going to work with me.

last night's scrimmage was l-o-n-g. I'm a bit concerned about our practice spaces once the summer heat really kicks in. it's hard enough to be in them just standing there, but add hard exercise to the mix and...yech!

it's just maddening how there's NOWHERE to rollerskate in this town. we have to settle for lacrosse boxes, tennis courts, and dry-floor hockey and curling rinks when we're really lucky. oh, and this other practice space at a local university, where we have to practice during the winter, which is just barely covered and (when the snow/ice/etc kicks in) far colder than a witch's tit. not even to mention that the surface is so rough that if you skate on it in the wrong wheels, your teeth clatter. I guess that builds endurance, but man, that air shrinks your lungs. oh, for the days of several roller rinks in town. seattle skaters are SO lucky.

anyway, enough complaining!

breakfast:
bacon
yogurt w/nuts, strawberries, and a small crumbled up brownie
coconut oil
few additional nuts. heh.

lunch:
breakfast for lunch! eggs, chorizo, bacon, iced espresso w/cream & sweetener

dinner:
beanless turkey chili w/cheese & sour cream
nuts
chocolate (90% of course, blah blah blah)

I'm looking to test a couple of custard recipes. if all goes to plan, I'll be making a trifle for my mom's birthday on sunday. :)

whens-day

another graze-y day for me.

breakfast...spread out over a few hours:
brownie
few nuts
americano w/cream & sweetener

lunch:
cheese
few nuts
yogurt
strawberries
brownie (small one)

dinner:
beanless turkey chili
cheese
sour cream

so it's tuesday again.

skating time. my head still doesn't feel right, so I'm a bit concerned about the whole exertion/helmet combination. hopefully it'll be ok. I feel like such a colossal wimp.

breakfast:
bacon and eggs

skating: success!

lunch:
coconut water
steak cooked in coconut oil
broccoli slaw
few grape tomatoes

snack? does coffee count as a snack?:
what I wanted: iced espresso.
what I had: an odd coffee smoothie with a little heavy cream, almond milk, strong-as-balls decaf instant coffee, a little cocoa, and sweetener. oh yeah, and a scoop of protein powder, because the texture was bumming me out. and a LOT of ice. 20/30 retrospect: should have included coconut milk. duly noted.

anyway.

dinner:
chicken
gravy
cauliflower
broccoli
butter
peppers

later:
couple of big brownies MMMMMMM

ok, so I made brownies, I tweaked that recipe and they're lurvely. and lower in carbs. :)

let's play!

today's game is "what I WANTED to eat vs. what I actually ate". I'll post what I felt like eating, and then what I had instead. pretty exciting, I'm sure...zzzzzz...

breakfast:
what I wanted: yogurt. or bacon. or both. and an americano.
what I actually ate: few nuts, scrambled eggs with cheese, handful of pork rinds. and a square of chocolate. I'm weak and feel like I've had the crap beaten out of me by that headache. and clearly in the mood to justify my own BS. stop looking at me like that!!! ;)

lunch:
what I wanted: nuts and chocolate. and coffee. part of me wanted a steak.
what I actually ate: see above! the chocolate is 90% cocoa, very low in carbs, and I only had one square. heh. oh, and a piece of cheese.

dinner:
what I wanted: bbq steak
what I actually ate: roast chicken, mashed cauliflower w/gravy, roasted broccolini, chocolate mousse. I was in a cooking mood. I will have steak tomorrow!

also, I just saw an interview I did before the last bout. oh my god. GROSS. I mean, I was somewhat prepared with the low camera and such, but damn...that was not very nice to see.

sunday

I woke up this morning after having totally revolting dreams, and basically don't feel like being social, like the grody dreams are hanging off me like a smell. ha! of course, today I have to go to a jewelry party (which I do not want to go to), and then I have practice. which I feel nervous about, for some reason. every once in awhile, since my epic, back-injuring fall, skating rattles me. today is one of those days. but maybe I'll be over it by tonight.

edit: not only did I not get over it, my headache from the other night came back full-force and ended the practice early for me. booooo. I feel defeated. :(

breakfast:
yogurt w/crumbled nut bar and diced strawberries

lunch:
chicken
cheese
peppers
sour cream
nut bar

snack (at aforementioned jewelry party):
americano w/cream and sweetener
peppers
guacamole
chili dip

dinner:
chicken
salad
ranch dressing
nut bar (they're all finished now!)

after practice, we went to a gelato place. so rather than get one, and/or not try any at all, I tried tiny bits of several flavours that I'd never tried before. can't say it helped my headache or related upset stomach!

I ate a lot today, or so it appears. gaddamn.

lazy und graze-y

so i just kind of picked today. I didn't really have a set breakfast, lunch, or dinner. ok, dinner was kind of set:

brazil nuts (1 net carb per oz vs 2 for macadamia nuts??)
strawberries
nut bars
brownie (yes, just one)
americano w/cream and sweetener
cheese
chicken
salad
ranch dressing
yogurt

I think that's it! too much on the snacky and sweet side, but it IS the weekend. ;)

btw...I'm dying laughing at this. louis ck is my favourite comedian, and this is a clip from his special, Shameless. SO FUNNY! but tons of swearing, so NSFW, and if you're easily offended, don't click: http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x2lk1m_louis-ck-clip-from-shameless_fun

fr-eye-day

this has been a long week of nothing. if I'd known I was going to get 2 weeks off, I'd have planned to do something interesting. but no dice, alas.

breakfast:
bacon
eggs
brownie

lunch:
americano w/cream & sweetener
couple of strawberries
brazil nuts
small brownie

dinner:
short ribs
peppers

snack of sorts*:
small brownie
3 brazil nuts

*I got home from the scrimmage with a pretty nasty headache. advil + empty stomach = ouch, hence...wee snack. I wasn't hungry for it at all.

thirst-day

so I'm finding myself in this ungood state of procrastination these days. I AM a procrastinator by nature, unfortunately, but this is bad even for me! I meant to try out Lauren's new brownie recipe last night. I made them this morning. last night's dinner will be tonight's. and I was going to go skating, but decided to wait to see if my sister wants to go, effectively delaying anything else I want to do today. AND, I just now got off the phone with her, and she doesn't want to skate because she wants go to RUNNING. sheesh...bye bye hour of my life waiting to hear back! d'oh.

breakfast:
brazil nuts
strawberries
LC brownies (even though I'm supposed to wait until they're full cool to try, they are still awesome)

lunch:
broccoli slaw
bacon
cheese
another brownie! heh.

dinner:
thai green chicken curry (homemade, with stevia)
riced cauliflower
brownie

boy, did I have seconds of the chicken. oops!

wed

nesday! I'm feeling pretty cranky today. hopefully it'll lift soon.

breakfast:
handful of nuts
pound cake (it's almost finished now)

lunch:
americano w/cream & sweetener
chicken w/salad

snack:
brazil nuts
strawberries

dinner:
bbq hamburger patties w/sf ketchup and mustard
sausages (no grain, no sweetner)
veggies
sf chocolate mousse w/walnuts

tues

a skating day, yeah! I'm a bit sore, but good sore.

breakfast:
egg
bacon
piece of pound cake

lunch:
steak fajitas w/salsa, guacamole, sour cream
pound cake again

dinner:
chicken
salad
americano w/cream & sweetener
still more pound cake, heh!

monday

it's a long weekend here, and all I have to do today is putter around before going to a concert tonight. I wish I worked today.

breakfast:
bacon
eggs
few almonds

lunch:
broccoli slaw
cheese
strawberries & cream
low-carb, grain and sugar free pound cake

dinner:
tea w/cream & sweetener
chicken fajitas w/sour cream & salsa (no rice, beans, tortillas, etc)

oh for...

so my stomach is still not behaving. this is getting really old, really fast. also, I thought I had practice tonight, but I do not, which bums me out.

breakfast:
ricotta cheese "pudding"

lunch:
americano w/cream & sweetener
smokie w/mustard, no bun (yay street meat!)

snack:
nuts
1 square 90% cocoa chocolate

dinner:
salad
ranch dressing
zucchini lasagna
er...see "snack"
strawberries & HWC

I think I need to go shopping!

sorry about the width, BUT:



bwaaaaa ha ha ha ha ha!

breakfast:
cheese
cake
nuts
(great breakfast, eh? it's saturday, I'm lazy and it'll probably be graze central unless I go somewhere today)

lunch:
see breakfast, minus nuts
iced americano w/cream and sweetener

dinner:
zucchini "noodle" lasagna

after eating what was a ton of vegetables at dinner, not all that long after eating nuts, I was in PAIN again last night, and couldn't even make it to see my herbalist. that REALLY sucks.

on the plus side, it's a gorgeous day. maybe I'll go skating.

breakfast:
soup
cinnamon coconut bread, again

lunch:
roast beef
coconut oil
small piece of sugar-and-grain-free cake
cheese

dinner:
chicken
salad
broccoli
aforementioned cake
americano w/cream & sweetener

oh good. and once again, cream day 1.

I'm seeing my herbalist tonight for a checkup. I guess dyeing my hair and getting a pedicure, so my system will be loaded with chemicals that I normally stay away from, is a super great idea right beforehand, right? ha!

I am still pretty sore from tuesday's huge skatefest. not as sore as yesterday, thank jebus, but still pretty fricking sore.

(I keep tracking what day I have to start the herbalist's cream on here because I'm pretty bad with standard issue calendars.)

breakfast:
yogurt w/nuts and coconut
roast beef

lunch:
soup
cheese
americano w/cream & sweetener

snack (I know, I know...)
yogurt w/nuts and coconut

dinner:
chicken
roast beef (small slice...don't know why I felt I needed to specify)
salad w/homemade vinaigrette
broccoli
butter

snack:
coconut flour cinnamon bread (small piece)

I don't know what's making me rebel against my no-nuts, and today no-snack, thing. I may take my ban off sweets but keep no snacks and no seconds. then later, take the sweets back off. look at me backpedaling and justifying my own BS. hahaha...ah well. :) I don't want to drive myself insane(er), is all.

I saw shoes that I loved a couple of weeks ago for $65. I seriously ached over not buying them. today, I found them and decided to just buck up and pay. my total, including tax? just over $16! holy discount batman. stores that indiscriminately put things in clearance, then take 50% off, rule.

breakfast:
eggs
bacon
ham
chorizo
coffee w/cream & stevia

lunch:
americano w/cream & stevia
yogurt (trying to get in some good bacteria after the stomach hell I went through)
nuts

dinner:
pork chop
chicken
broccoli
butter
coconut oil

I'd put a roast in the oven in the afternoon on low heat so I can eat it for the next couple of days. I had an early dinner, did a bunch of errands and went to my sister's and came home with horrible hunger pangs...so I had a small piece of the roast. maybe I shouldn't have. but I wasn't sure I'd be able to get to sleep feeling that hungry. d'oh.

feeling almost better.

I'm still suffering from my epic day of carbs, a bit. so not only am I paying involuntarily, I paid voluntarily today by skating for close to 3 hours! I fear for my legs! hahaha! fun, and painful.

breakfast:
pork chops
egg

lunch:
pork chop
coconut oil
americano w/cream & sweetener

dinner:
coconut water
ground beef
salsa
cheese
sour cream
few bites of chicken
small handful of walnuts.

so they say...

...that the worst cheat is the one you get away with. if that's the case, then I've had the best cheat of all time. I was up for a good chunk of the night with HORRIBLE stomach pains, and I still feel ill today. so to fix, I'm eating almost zero-carb, and tons of probiotics. back to no snacks tomorrow. I have paid.

breakfast:
ground beef
coconut oil

snack 1:
egg

snack 2:
egg
cheese

dinner:
chicken
cheese

weekend...off.

ok, so saturday wasn't too horrible, I had maybe a quarter cup, max, of hashbrowns, and outside of too many nuts (damned portability), an on-plan kind of day. I walked and skated for close to 8 hours altogether. maybe a little less, but not much. now I realize why my legs and feet are so sore today.

sunday, on the other hand, was a gong show, diet-wise. I now am bloated and breaking out in rashes. I may have another cheat day in the future, but it's well and truly out of my system.

anyhoo...on to monday. :) perhaps a day of zero-carb will kick my ass into better gear.

almost d-day!

d-day, as in derby day. ha! tomorrow, I will be tied up with all things derby related from about 9:30 am until at least 10 pm. I'm excited, bout days are a blast! but it's mercury retrograde, and I have a technical position. gah.

I'm still feeling anxiety attack-ish. I'm lifting my nuts-only-on-weekends rule for a bit, simply because I don't need one more thing to stress over. and because I had a few nuts at breakfast and don't want to do my usual beating up of myself. will it impact weight loss? well...everything does, food in general does, to me anyway. it just sucks, because I know eating the low-fat, high carb way makes me feel much, much worse, and also ends up in me gaining weight instead of maintaining or losing at a slug's pace. I'm frustrated, but this is simply how I eat now. hopefully my stupid body will start doing what it's always done in the past when presented with low-carb: drop weight without so much struggle. full-on cheating will land me back where I started, and I don't ever want that again.

breakfast:
yogurt
handful of nuts
chayote squash
roast beef

lunch:
roast beef (I'm redundant)
americano w/cream and sweetener

dinner:
mashed cauliflower
roast beef
cheese
nut bar

caution: another busy weekend ahead

I'm trying to figure out if there's anything I can do today to make for less to do tomorrow to prepare for saturday. silliness, really, but my time tomorrow is limited. I got called into work for friday, and have a concert to go to that night, not to mention driving all over hell's half acre after work for various reasons. and I'll have NO time saturday morning at all. thanks, derby. ;)

breakfast:
eggs
cheese
salsa
sour cream

lunch:
roast beef
small handful of walnuts
americano w/cream & sweetener

dinner:
roast beef
chayote squash
mashed cauliflower

so I broke my nut rule again. I swear, they make a difference in my mood. I was feeling weird today, craving nuts like crazy, so I had maybe 5 or 6 walnuts, and felt notably better. maybe I'm lacking something they have in them. dunno. but I can't make it a daily habit.

or twice daily, and violating new dietary rules, like I did today. stupid anxiety. I wish I could say the snack didn't make me feel better, but it did. medicating with food is bad. I'm going to have nuts at breakfast tomorrow too, if I wake up anxious. lame. I hate justifying my own bullshit.

late:
1 square 90% cocoa
small handful of nuts
nut bar (I was making a batch for the bout and they were breaking up...and I'm weak. sigh.)

my league has a bout on saturday. I'm already nervous about clothes, even though everything is pretty much packed and ready to go. footwear is the bane of my existence right now.

breakfast:
eggs
cheese
pepperoni

lunch:
americano w/cream & sweetener (always, always decaf)
chicken
cheese (I bought a bunch of really good cheese the other day, and am being a bit nuts with it, clearly)

dinner:
zucchini noodles
sauce w/chicken & cheese

stupid grey day

crappy weather day, my mood is more suited to the sun today. ;)

breakfast:
omelet with leftover turkey taco meat, salsa, cheese, sour cream
coconut oil

coconut water (went skating, sweated my nonexistent balls off, needed to rehydrate)

lunch:
pepperoni
cheese
americano w/cream and sweetener

dinner:
chicken
salad w/dressing
broccoli w/butter
coconut oil

3 strawberries. I was at a party and didn't want to have another dinner and also didn't want to eat anything super high carb, so that was what I got away with. I'm not sure if I feel guilty or not.

day 2 of NO herbalist cream...don't forget.

practice was brutal last night. the only time in my life I've ever sweated as much as when I'm skating at practices was when I was doing ashtanga yoga all the time (which basically turned me into a sweat factory).

i think the coconut water is really good for hydrating, but I balk at the carbs in it. especially since after having it at friday's practice, I was STARVING when I got home. but I didn't eat, I just went to bed. it still beats gatorade, or that nestea crap with splenda in it.

FYI...splenda kills the good bacteria in your gut. not what you want, trust me.

anyhoo!

breakfast:
eggs
roast beef
tea w/cream, stevia

lunch:
pepperoni stick
americano w/cream, sweetener

dinner:
turkey
roast beef
salsa
sour cream
cheese

where did the nice weather go?

I don't know if it's like this for the rest of north america, but our weather forecasts are so inaccurate, that it's shocking. I used to listen to this one station, on AM no less, and I knew that whatever they said the next day's weather would be would be dead wrong. predicting sun? bring your umbrella. predicting rain? don't bother. anyway...yesterday was supposed to be nice (was ugly and rainy), today was supposed to rain, and so far, it's pretty good.

ah, banality. :D

so I made a batch of nut bars. eating them is a novelty now, but they just don't taste as awesome or addictive as they used to. which I'm counting as a huge win. :D and I'm supposed to be going out for lunch today, which my control freak tendencies are not looking forward to.

breakfast:
yogurt w/almond butter and a chopped up nut bar

lunch:
eggs, bacon & chorizo
few bites of hash browns (WHY? I have NO idea.)
americano w/cream & sweetener
1/2 nut bar
1 small square lindt 85%

dinner:
chicken
salad
other half of the aforementioned nut bar

coconut water

saturdaaay

breakfast:
leftover pork (that would make a good band name, hahaha)
oopsie rolls w/almond butter and sf peach preserves
small handful of nuts (like 6 nuts total)

snack (breakfast was obscenely early, I couldn't sleep!):
cinnamon bun muffin and a half (which I made: coconut flour, sweetened with erythritol, xylito, stevia and 1 tsp of molasses for the entire batch)
americano w/cream & sweetener

lunch:
leftover pork
nut bar

dinner:
chicken
salad
nut bar

I got totally manhandled by my chiropractor yesterday, and am sore today! ye gads.

so my weight is finally starting to creep down. snacking and desserts, which count as a second and oftentimes a third, were the culprits, I guess! I've been drinking club soda with stevia, so the taste of sweet doesn't seem to be the problem. anyway...yay! I'm sticking with the no-s. it's not painful, and I realistically should be eating that way anyway. even though I'm rarely hungry for lunch anymore.

breakfast:
steak
mozzarella cheese

lunch:
iced espresso, cream, sweetener

dinner:
pulled pork of extreme awesomeness, as i'm now calling it. it's pork tenderloin with SF peach preserves, fresh jalapeno peppers, onions, salt, etc, cooked to the point of falling apart goodness.
broccoli
red peppers

I'm also having a half-serving of coconut water, bringing it to practice. that stuff is nature's gatorade. hahahaha!

Total Calories: 1323

6%	60%	34%
Carbs	Fats	Protein

net carbs: 18.1 (thanks, coconut water)

yay!

I have tickets to see the Eagles of Death Metal, who I LOVE.

I also have a mean hankering for some chocolate, and wish it were saturday in the worst way as a result.

on that note, I'm going to keep up the No-S rules, but I am going to toss out the calorie/etc tracking. I realized that when my calories end up a bit low, I feel elated, and that's not healthy or ok. when I saw today's calories finishing around the 1300 mark, I felt like high fiving myself, then felt weird about it. I'll finish with today and friday, and may do it on occasion, but as for the daily updates, no more as of this weekend.

breakfast:
eggs
roast beef

lunch:
iced americano w/cream & sweetener

dinner:
chicken
broccolini
salad
coconut oil

Total Calories: 1307

5%	65%	30%
Carbs	Fats	Protein

net carbs - 12.2

the more I read about zero-carb, the better I think it is. I'm just saying. :) I'm nowhere near ready to take that step, but the more I read about it, the less worried I am about basing my diet mostly on meat. not that it's a concern, but everyone digs validation!

breakfast:
eggs
cheese
bacon

lunch:
deviled eggs w/bacon bits

dinner:
tea w/cream & stevia
chicken
salad
cheese

Total Calories: 1452

3%	73%	24%
Carbs	Fats	Protein

net carbs: 7.3

hmmmmm.

I am breaking my self-imposed "nuts only on the weekend" rule today. I realized I'm going to be, once again, doing a whole lot of running around with limited time for food preparation. I might not HAVE to do it, I have some meat in the oven right now (not a euphemism, HA!), but just in case. nuts are a better on-the-go option than fast food, imo.

and as I feared, seeing my calorie counts is starting to get to me. too many years of low-cal diet programming. that one day that I went over 2000 freaked me out! I'm going to continue on with it for the rest of the week, I guess, and see how I feel about it by the weekend.

breakfast:
steak
hard boiled eggs
coconut oil

*epiphany* - I like to eat nuts when I'm stressed out! today has been disappointing, annoying, upsetting. and it's not even 1:30 yet! today, I'm the litter box, not the cat. on that note:

lunch:
boneless short ribs
mixed nuts

(annoyingly, I feel happier after eating said nuts. they're still off the menu as snacks until the weekend.)

dinner:
boneless short ribs
few more nuts

I just didn't feel like veggies today.


Total Calories: 1995

3%	65%	32%
Carbs	Fats	Protein

net carbs: 9.2

mondays just keep right on coming

I am sore from practice last night! sore and with a new blister to deal with.

and now I'm done whining...for now. ;)

breakfast:
chili
eggs
cheese
sour cream
coconut oil

lunch:
hot wings
decaf americano w/cream & sweetener

dinner:
steak
salad w/dressing, etc
coconut oil

Total Calories: 1751

3%	68%	29%
Carbs	Fats	Protein

net carbs: 12.2

another busy day ahead. le sigh.

I think I should stick to meat and eggs for breakfast. I like the idea of a sweet breakfast more than I actually like the breakfast itself. plus, I should have not been lazy and made bacon instead of just having cheese.

breakfast:
oopsie french toast
yogurt
xylitol syrup
butter
mozzarella cheese

lunch/snack:
coconut
almonds
2 squares lindt 90%

dinner:
salad w/tomatoes, cheese, ranch, bacon bits
turkey chili
less than 1/4 of a small roti

the roti...well, my esthetician is a lovely Indian lady, and gave me a few fresh ones, still warm. they were potato roti, which I'd never tried, so I decided to have a couple of bites. they were delicious, but I stuck with the small amounts, since I now know what they taste like. I gave the rest to my best friend. :)

saturday

lucky for me, I woke up feeling queasy today, and it seems to be back a little. maybe the wedding food won't be an issue! hahaha! I probably just brought it on myself with worrying. heh.

breakfast:
2 oopsie rolls w/peanut butter and SF strawberry preserves
chicken

lunch/snack? (ended up being eaten pretty late, I'd brought the nuts to the wedding just in case)
toasted pecans & almonds
1 square of lindt 90% cocoa
1/3 chicken breast

dinner:
butter chicken
ham & turkey (deli style, one slice each)
roast beef
salad w/crappy caesar dressing
green beans
raw cauliflower & broccoli
weird cucumber/dill salad

small amounts of a lot of stuff! and all of it legal, except the dip with the veggies. it was dim, and usually it's ranch. when I got back to the table, it was a bit translucent, and tasted kind of sweet. so I ate the broccoli and cauliflower by itself. the wedding was really nice, and the reception was a total blast! and no worries about dinner, and I just stayed away from the desserts. somebody give me a medal! ;)

it's friday, I'm in love!

ok, no I'm not. but it IS friday. :)

wedding tomorrow, still no idea what to wear. awesome. and this will be my last track of nutritional info for now. I kind of like seeing the analysis though, so I may keep it up on weekdays only. :)

breakfast:
roast beef
eggs
(beef and eggs = fantastic breakfast!)

lunch (?):
decaf coffee w/half and half

dinner:
roast beef
salad
grape tomatoes
mozzarella cheese
ranch dressing
bacon bits
americano w/cream & sweetener

Total Calories: 1609

2%	68%	30%
Carbs	Fats	Protein

net carbs: 11.2

this is odd. when I re-inducted (can you even call it that?) last, I decided to do no sweets for three days. on the third day, I was dying for it. so now I'm trying to just do desserts (and any other sweet meal *cough*sugar free maple syrup*cough*) on the weekend only, and, ideally, not every weekend. anyhow...day 4, and I'm dying for chocolate. *shrug*

speaking of the weekend, I have a wedding to go to on saturday. this makes my palms sweat for two reasons:

1. I have nothing to wear (black dresses seem too goth for a spring wedding)
2. the food choices.

I suppose I can just resign to having a potentially off-plan meal, but I've been so damn careful. it IS on the weekend, etc, but man. I know butter chicken will be involved, I just hope it's not too rice-laden. because rice sucks.

breakfast:
roast beef
eggs

lunch:
roast beef (guess what I cooked last night?)
salad

dinner:
still more roast beef
chicken
peppers
ranch dip
broccoli w/butter, sour cream, bacon
coconut oil

Total Calories: 1487

6%	57%	37%
Carbs	Fats	Protein

total net carbs: 15.1

no work today. yay/yikes!

breakfast:
brisket
eggs
coconut oil

lunch (?):
americano
cream
sweetener

dinner:
salad
mozzarella cheese
ranch dressing
chicken
broccoli
cauliflower
butter
coconut oil

totals for the day (I'll do this tomorrow and the day after too, so I have some idea of what I typically eat. just for fun, hahaah!):

Total Calories: 1391

4%	67%	29%
Carbs	Fats	Protein

total net carbs: 11.2

hellooo, spring!

once the initial blast of alder pollen goes away, I can't help but be in love with the season. cherry blossoms are everywhere, you can smell the ocean and poplar trees, and the days are longer and lovely! makes me want to just be outside before summer comes and makes it too hot to stand it.

breakfast:
eggs
brisket
coconut oil

lunch:
brisket
orange peppers
ranch dip
coconut oil

dinner:
chicken
salad w/ranch dressing
caulflower
butter

just for fun, I thought I'd run this through nutritiondata.com. my supposed minimum calorie requirement is something like 1950 cal/day. I'm going to run monday through, and maybe wednesday too, and log it here, just for my own reference.

Total Calories: 1828

4%	58%	38%
Carbs	Fats	Protein

estimated glycemic load: 7

net carbs: 12.8

it seems like my omega 6's are awfully high, which surprises me. which foods are high in omega 6??

good monday...or is it?

depends on who you ask (don't ask the boomtown rats!). I had an excellent practice last night, but I'm a bit sore today. when I first started with the derby league, I'd be DYING of soreness after practices, like almost to the point of having to lift my legs using my hands. I'm on the referee team now, and much to my initial surprise...we work just as hard. short story long, I'm never anywhere near as sore after practice as I was before, and I'm bordering on being proud of myself for it.

derby endurance is a different creature than others. one of the players, who is in obvious excellent shape, has endurance problems at times. her usual position is Jammer, which is the most demanding, but she's a runner in her off-skate life. she was commenting on how different it is the other day. roller skating is like jogging with weights on your feet. I thought it was interesting. :)

anyway! enough of that. time for the foodstuffs.

breakfast:
pork chops (the super thin sliced, "fast fry" type)
egg

lunch:
tuna
mayo
orange pepper

I wasn't actually hungry for lunch. it's a well-ingrained habit to eat on breaks at work, and evidently I haven't broken that one. plus, I can't have snacks now, so that's that. unless I grabbed a handful of nuts and called it lunch. oh wait...I'm trying to only eat nuts on the weekend. hahaha! guess we'll see how I go with that one...

dinner:
chicken
broccoli w/butter, sour cream, bacon
peppers
ranch dip
americano w/cream & sweetener

Total Calories: 2060

5%	61%	34%
Carbs	Fats	Protein

estimated glycemic load: 11

net carbs: 18.2

sundayyy

I thought I had entered today's food! aduh.

breakfast (and lunch):
taco meat
cheese
sour cream
salsa

dinner:
sausage
chicken
steak
halloumi
peppers
cucumbers
(it was a bbq meatapalooza! small bits of everything, and everything frigging delicious!)

post-practice snack:
protein powder in water
1 bite of coconut milk pudding to kill the over-the-top dairy aftertaste. hahaha!

so this week, along with no snacks and no seconds...no desserts. except on the weekend. wish me luck!

busy day!

I should have left today open. d'oh.

breakfast:
taco meat
cheese
sour cream
salsa
(didn't feel like eggs and need to finish the salsa before it goes off)

lunch? dinner? (full for HOURS after breakfast):
chicken
broccoli w/butter
orange pepper w/ranch dip
peanut butter cups (2 tiny ones)
coconut milk pudding w/pecans

on the wrong side of the bed

that's where I got up this morning. yeesh.

anyhoo!

breakfast:
bacon & cheese omelet
sour cream & salsa

lunch:
chef's salad
ranch dressing

dinner:
americano (arguably the best one I've ever had in my life) with cream and sweetner

I'm calling the drink dinner. I was stuffed from breakfast for HOURS today, which I guess is a good thing.

see previous video post

wwwwork is the last thing on my mind! ha!

I decided to make peanut butter cups today. no recipe, which isn't always smart. I guess we'll see how THAT works out.

breakfast:
bacon & cheese omelet
sour cream & salsa
peanut butter filling (as I said, no recipe, so I had to taste it. hehe.)

lunch:
americano w/cream & sweetener
chicken
salad
bacon bits
ranch dressing
peanut butter cups (ok, maybe making them wasn't super duper smart)

dinner:
chicken
broccoli
butter
sour cream
bacon bits
peanut butter cup (I know, I know)
americano w/cream & sweetener

no work today!

thanks to my niece and nephew, I used to sing this song in my head at work (when I was in a job I hated) ALL THE TME:



now it just applies to not working. ha!

thank GOODNESS I had no work today! my throat is sore again. I thought it was from having to yell my head off on saturday (derby refereeing ain't quiet), as it started on sunday, but it's still here. including feeling weak. yay.

breakfast:
steak
coconut milk pudding w/nuts

lunch:
coconut milk pudding w/nuts
(I wasn't hungry and I'm concerned about the stuff going off. sheesh. not much left now. :) )

dinner:
chicken
salad
ranch dressing
bacon bits
broccoli
sour cream
butter
see lunch. ha!!!

and I'm back!

the worst I did as far as off-plan eating goes is a few bites of bean casserole and two or three pecans off the top of a sweet potato pie during easter dinner. go me! I still feel overstuffed.

the weekend was a gong show of being too busy, and spending hours and hours in a freezing cold arena. now I have a sore throat! so excited! ;)

I made a big zucchini noodle lasagna, and am trying to eat it before it goes off.

oh, and I'm trying to cut out snacks.

breakfast:
aforementioned lasagna
chayote w/sweetner, almonds & coconut
hwc

lunch:
see breakfast, minus cream and chayote
couple of slices of roast beef

dinner:
see lunch. the lasagna is now finished!
coconut milk pudding (I'm not cutting weekday desserts until next week! hehe!)

weekend off!

not off from my eating plan, off from logging food. :) I'm going to be too busy and running around (and away from a computer) for most (read: probably all) of the weekend to remember everything I eat and log it. :) if I have something pressing to say, I probably will, but as for what I'm consuming, I won't be able to worry about it at length this weekend.

so yeah! happy easter! :) see ya on monday.

babysitting...

...instead of working. my lovely 7 yr old nephew is sick, so here I am. rock you like a hurricane. ha!

breakfast:
nut bar
granola
yogurt

lunch:
zucchini "noodle" lasagna
nut bar

dinner:
turkey chili on a pork chop (meat o rama!)
nut bar

day 2 of 12 of not using the herbalist's cream. god, that sounds so cryptic.

breakfast:
coconut muffin
roast beef
havarti
mustard

lunch (graze-y lunch, my worst thing, little bits of each):
chicken
roast beef
cheese
peanuts & peanut butter on celery

dinner:
turkey chili
sour cream
cheese
coconut cheese bread
nut bar

yeesh

so I saw my friend on the weekend, who was complaining about being sick. it sounded like he had the stupid flu I just had, so I didn't think TOO much of him talking to me, right in my face, in a loud bar. my voice is screwy today and my throat itches. YAY, oh good, please let this be a new cold! because I just haven't had enough between the alder pollen and the ever-morphing hellflu. really. I need to have my yelling voice back/on by saturday.

hahaha, whine whine whine.

breakfast:
coconut flour muffin (yeah, I need to get some bacon!)
peanut butter
butter
sf strawberry preserves
coconut milk pudding

snack:
macadamia nuts

lunch:
see breakfast, minus pudding, plus bocconchini. talk about unsatisfying. I didn't have any time to cook anything yesterday that I could have had today, and forgot I still had meat cookies. what a drag. I wonder if they're still ok.

snack (after an impromptu 45 minute skate, whew):
roast beef

dinner:
chicken
broccoli
salad
ranch
1 square chocolate
walnuts

siiiigh...

this is the last week of my short assignment, and I'm completely bummed out about it. :(

breakfast:
coconut muffin, split
on one half: roast beef, havarti, mustard
on the other: peanut butter, sf strawberry preserves

lunch:
broccoli, cauliflower, celery w/ranch dip
buffalo chicken wings
americano w/cream & sweetner

snack:
nuts

dinner:
steak
salad w/ranch dressing
coconut milk pudding
square of dark chocolate

another sunday

the drum workshop was super cool, albeit too long and blister-producing.

breakfast:
coconut muffin
butter
SF strawberry preserves
peanut butter
americano
cream & sweetner

once again, my day got crazy and I had no time to update, so hopefully I'm not missing anything:

lunch:
coconut muffin
havarti
roast beef
mustard

snack:
macadamia nuts

dinner:
chicken
mashed cauliflower
coconut milk pudding

drum workshop day!

this should be interesting for on-plan eating. and by INTERESTING, I mean "packing my own lunch to a lunch-provided thing".

there's a tattoo convention happening in town in a couple of weeks, and I want to go in the worst way. I also want to get tattooed by corey miller in the worst way, but that's looking impossible. le sigh. I'll just have to be satisfied with gawking at him. hrmph.

breakfast:
"english muffin"
yogurt
nuts
granola

the rest of the day (can't remember exactly what I ate when, so here's the list):
1/2 pastrami sandwich on coconut roll
veggies (tomatoes, broccoli, cauliflower, mashed cauliflower, peppers, lettuce, snow/snap peas {not sure which} cucumber)
chicken
strawberries
coconut milk pudding

seriously...let me sleep.

I was going to get up early to see my doctor today about how over-the-top tired I am ALL THE TME. my neighbours helped me out by waking me up BEFORE 530 am. ye gads. then, I went to the doctor (in another part of town) only to find out that he's taken today off. jackass. so I'm pretty unimpressed with today so far.

breakfast:
yogurt
nut granola (as if I'd eat a grain one)
leftover beef shortribs

snack:
americano w/cream & sweetner
coconut milk pudding

lunch:
chicken, pesto, tomato, mozzarella sandwich on coconut english muffin
yogurt & nuts (the sandwich was NOT satisfying)

dinner:
chicken thighs (guess why? chicken thigh!)
salad
ranch dressing

I've had two naps, and I'm thinking I'm due for #3. gawwwd.

let me sleep!

please!

seriously...I'm concerned about my fatigue levels. I went to the chiropractor today and then had a LONG-ass nap. I'm ready for another nap and then a good night's sleep. tomorrow morning, I'll go see my (hot) doctor.

breakfast:
meatloaf
coconut muffin

snack:
homemade mounds
1/2 nut bar (and they're DONE for now, thank goodness! too good for me.)

dinner:
boneless short ribs in homemade bbq style sauce
big salad
ranch dressing
coconut milk pudding
HWC

happy april fool's day!

or not...hahaha! it was a waste of a day/gong show for me. which resulted in a less than great breakfast and lunch. I had to wait at the DMV again, all damn day, and forgot to bring snacks. by the time I got home, I was starving and grabbed the first low-carb friendly things I found.

breakfast:
sausage & egg mcmuffin on a coconut flour muffin

lunch:
nut bar
yogurt & granola

dinner:
meatloaf
broccoli
butter
homemade mounds bar

snack:
slice of roast beef
coconut milk chocolate pudding

day 12...

...of my herbalist's cream. last day for now. just making a note of it. :)

breakfast:
worst omelet ever
almond flour biscuit

snack:
1/2 nut bar
peppers
snap peas
cucumber
maybe 1/2 teaspoon spicy hummus
(someone in the office FINALLY brought veggies instead of chocolates!)

lunch:
roast beef
1 bite of cheese that ended up being just horrendous
nut bar (still haven't gone shopping)

snack:
granola
HWC

dinner:
chicken
broccoli
butter
coconut milk chocolate pudding w/hwc

les 'ormones are a-raging.

so.

not much to say right now!

breakfast:
roast beef
yogurt
granola
chayote

lunch:
it was at this point that I realized that I have NO veggies left! must shop.
chayote
roast beef
nut bar

snack:
granola
bit of hwc

dinner:
see snack
roast beef

must shop.

at meeting:
3 strawberries
snap peas
handful of nuts (gotta get a handle on nut consumption, I think)

slumday?

I'm mentally bracing my nails for the onslaught of wheel and bearing changes.

breakfast:
chocolate granola (sweet merciful crap, is that stuff good)
yogurt
roast beef

lunch:
yogurt
granola

snack:
bocconchini

dinner:
chicken
roast beef (I made one. or rather, cooked one!)
chayote squash
nut bar

unneeded emotional-eating snack:
2 stinkin' homemade coconut bars. I'm trying not to feel too bad about myself for eating them...but I do. :(

sale day!

my favourite skate shop is having a big-ass sale today and I'm pretty excited! I want to buy out the store! oh unbridled avarice!

I've been just exhausted the past few days. like, really, truly, horridly tired. I know I'm not pregnant, thus my iron must be low yet again. stupid genetics. it's not helping my mood at all. so I'm craving chocolate. not even sweet chocolate, just chocolate. weird.

breakfast:
yogurt
nut/seed granola
few bites nut bark (should have broken it up and frozen it as soon as it was set, goddammit)

lunch (this one was kinda graze-y):
americano w/cream & sweetener
roast beef
dry pepperoni
bocconchini
few more bites of nut bark (I shouldn't make this again.)

dinner:
steak
salad w/bocconchini
homemade mounds bar

later: chocolate granola. just enough to try it a little.

the weekend draws nigh!

I spent the morning babysitting, and on an unrelated note, now have an evil, evil headache. and am in the mood to COOK.

breakfast:
granola
yogurt
meat cookies

lunch:
sugar and grain free sausages
1/2 turkey burger patty
cheese
mustard

snack:
almonds
1 square chocoperfection (corn sources be damned)

dinner:
chicken
salad
cauliflower w/butter

it's thursday again.

yay.

I just choked down a piece of cheese and my supplements. I'm going to be stuck at the DMV for an unknown amount of time, and am not happy about it at all. in fact, I'm downright cranky about it. WHY do they have to make all things relative to driver's licenses such an absolute chore? not only is it the DMV, it's the shitty DMV. the nice one isn't an option today. and the worst of it is, it isn't MY license.

I think it was immanuel kant who said that people who willingly, happily do the right thing because a good deed is its own reward, or they get a payoff of sorts from it, aren't as virtuous as those who do the right thing despite almost being in physical pain over it because they don't want to so much (paraphrased roughly, and I hope that made sense). well, by that logic, I am pretty damn virtuous this morning.

"breakfast":
cheese
homemade mounds bar (out of grab and go options!)

lunch:
bacon cheeseburger on oopsies (lettuce, tomato, mayo, mustard)
salad

snack:
homemade no-grain peanut butter granola
yogurt

dinner:
beef stroganoff...kind of
peppers

I feel so bloody puffy today. I'm trying to figure out why. I had a little extra water yesterday, but maybe the mexican food was a lot saltier than I thought? maybe it's an ovulatory (new word alert) thing? I can feel it in my face, hands, and feet. yech. I guess I'll try to have a good, fat-laden day. ;)

I had an incredible time at the show last night. so worth the soulcrushing lack of sleep. :)

breakfast:
deviled eggs w/bacon
coconut oil

lunch:
americano
cream & sweetner
handful of walnuts
few bites homemade vanilla custard

dinner:
stewed beef
chicken
salad
broccoli w/butter
custard w/coconut

maybe I should post amounts? it always sounds like so much more than it is.

I'm going out of town for the evening to catch a concert. I guess I'll have to trust dinner to a restaurant. ugh, I can't believe this makes me nervous! hahaha! too used to cooking for myself.

breakfast:
eggs
bacon
cream cheese
almond flour biscuit w/peanut butter and xylitol honey

lunch (this is what I'm bringing, but we'll see how my appetite is):
oopsies
steak
nut bar

we went to a mexican buffet last night, so I tried a little of a lot of things (and a goodly amount of lettuce):
chipotle chicken (had maybe a tablespoon, which is good because i'm pretty sure it had sugar)
beef (see above brackets)
smoked/roasted chicken
beef fajitas
peppers
salad
guacamole
pico de gallo
sour cream

I think that was it. in the car, 3 of us split 2 of the nut bars.

moonday

I am tired and disenfranchised. the cream my herbalist put me on isn't having the desired effect of making me happy. I think that insufficient sleep and waking up to the radio playing sam roberts (who I despise) probably has more to do with it than the cream not working. ha!

breakfast:
roast pork
yogurt
chayote squash
nuts
almond butter
sweetner

lunch:
chicken
peppers
nut bar

snack:
nut bar (shoosh!)

dinner:
steak
almond flour biscuits
salad
homemade mounds bar

whoa, busy!

I was on the go all day today, and now I'm wiped. sleep sucked last night.

breakfast:
yogurt
nuts
chayote squash
americano
cream
sweetner

lunch:
oopsie rolls
turkey
mayo

snack:
1/2 nut bar :)
cheese

dinner:
chicken
chayote squash (I'm addicted)
broccoli
sour cream
bacon
cheese
nut bar (addicted to these too, apparently)

so I'm starting to notice...

...that I like to eat the same thing pretty often. if I make a big batch of something, I'll pretty well eat it for consecutive days, if not consecutive meals. I never thought about it before! heh.

busy day today, I have an event for my derby league to deal with, and then the rest of the day to have pre-planned fun. :D

breakfast:
1/2 nut bar (with which to take supplements before running a pre-breakfast errand)
meat cookies (still tortures me)
yogurt
chayote squash
almond butter
pecans
walnuts
it sounds like a lot more than it actually was. :)

snack:
americano
cream

lunch:
another nut bar (I'll get sick of them one day)
"mini mignons" - pieces of steak wrapped in bacon. pre-made. most non-delicious and disappointing.

dinner:
well...another nut bar. time is short and I can't cook anything as a result. gaaah.

friday for all!

I'm bristling with excitement for the weekend!

I saw my herbalist last night, and she said something to me that she's NEVER said to a single client in her 10 or so years of practice: "drink less water!" I was flabbergasted. but when you're drinking a crapload and still retaining from hormones that are not in balance (but on their way), it's best not to completely overdo it. so ok, I say. I'll just drink when I'm thirsty, but pay attention that I drink enough so I stave off headaches.

breakfast:
yogurt
almond butter
xylitol honey
walnuts
chayote squash
roast beef (I wasn't sure if the as-carby-as-I'm-willing-to-get breakfast would cause any problems or not)

snack:
nut snack bar. mon dieu, are they ever good.

lunch:
salad
roast beef
mayo

dinner:
roast beef (yes, again!)
tomato/bocconchini salad
nut bar...again. :)

fat head

...FINALLY arrived! I cannot wait to watch it. so excited. :)

and the xylitol raspberry syrup is insanely good.

breakfast:
protein powder pancakes
butter
raspberry xylitol syrup

lunch:
roast beef
chayote squash
yogurt
few walnuts
1" flat square 85% cocoa chocolate

I'm making some nut snack bars today, so I'll probably have one. :D

I did, and they are frigging incredible. do yourself a favour, and click the link in my sidebar to Healthy Indulgences. everything I've tried on there is amazing!

now then.

dinner:
broccoli
red peppers
roast beef
1/2 nut bar

water retension

I was thinking it to the tune of manic depression. ha! but seriously...something is making me retain water, and I don't know what. maybe too much sodium? at any rate, I *HATE* it. especially since I drink well over 100 oz of water per day. wtf...any suggestions?

breakfast:
leftover chicken and mashed cauliflower

lunch:
turkey
cheese
celery
americano w/cream and the appropriate sweeteners

the flu is flaring yet again, yeesh. due to feeling queasy, I'm having a bite here and there of stuff that I really FEEL like having...sooo...I'll log anything I eat for the rest of the day/night under dinner. and it probably won't be pretty, ie. it'll be bits and bites...of legal food.

dinner:
homemade mounds bar
turkey
chicken
peppers

I got my netrition order today, and I'm pretty effing stoked right now. :D

tuesday is like friday...

...when you are only working two official days per week. :D oh, the joys of being on-call.

I'm not hungry this morning, but I KNOW hunger will kick in hugely at work, and I'll be SOL if I don't make myself eat. this isn't the norm for me, at all.

breakfast:
eggs
bacon
coconut oil

snack:
bite (yes bite, not piece) of pumpkin cake
(and this is a classic example of mindless eating)

lunch:
chili
cheese
sour cream
chocolate oopsie

snack:
homemade mounds bar

dinner:
chicken
mashed cauliflower
broccoli
butter
pumpkin cake
whipped cream

another monday

I'm going to go ahead and blame the cold of yesterday: my shin splints are acting up a tad today. but they can just suffer, I'm going to use them anyway! muah ha ha ha.

breakfast:
eggs
brisket

note here: saying anything "and brisket" makes me think of the song "ball and biscuit" by the white stripes. good thing I like that song, eh?

snack:
homemade protein bar (not sure WHY I ate it, I wasn't especially hungry. d'oh.)

lunch:
chili
sour cream
chocolate oopsie (ok, so I like sweets.)

I made Lauren's gooey pumpkin butter cake (or pumpkin gooey butter cake?) and it's amazing.

dinner:
pork chops
broccoli
cheese
sour cream
bacon
piece of the aforementioned cake :)
whipping cream

gong show day arriveth

I have a parade to walk in, then a team meeting, then team photos, then testing which I'm shit-scared about. I woke up with my stomach in knots. arrrgh. I'm trying to eat breakfast and having a hard time! I'm taking a couple of homemade protein bars with me just in case.

I made chocolate pecan oopsie rolls. not bad. not awesome, but not bad.

breakfast:
chili
sour cream

lunch:
chocolate oopsies

dinner (very late)
brisket
oopsie

this wasn't a great day for me foodwise, clearly. I was up and out of the house too early with an upset stomach (which I had before the chili), was outside in horrid sleet for close to 2 hours, came home still feeling crappy (interestingly, when I feel crappy, I want stuff that tastes good/sweet rather than looking for something that may be extra nourishing), then went off to a meeting, a photo session, and a practice. i am so ready for bed now.

hmph.

the bad mood I was sinking into last night has its grip on me today, big time.

breakfast:
coconut flour muffin
coconut oil

lunch:
devilled eggs w/bacon bits (can't believe I didn't do this sooner)
coconut oil
cheese
grain free bread (made of eggs, zucchini, flax and walnuts)

dinner:
turkey chili (obviously beanless)
cheese
sour cream
coconut flour cupcake

since starting this menu-posting thing, I find I mindlessly eat less often. seeing as how I'm accountable and such. :)

ouch!!!!

before I even started to skate, I managed to fall backwards (ie. the one way where there's no protective gear), smashed my tailbone on a bench, and landed squah on my ass. I am a sore girl today. I finshed practice anyway though, go me.

breakfast:
oopsie french toast
butter
xylitol syrup
toasted pecans

lunch:
baja bowl from taco del mar (shredded beef, cheese, lettuce, salsa, guacamole, sour cream)
disappointment at how not-awesome the bowl was this time
coconut flour chocolate cupcake

dinner:
turkey sandwich (turkey, mayo) on oopsie rolls
green beans
butter
salad
ranch
baked cheese
coconut flour chocolate cupcake

another hungry day, apparently.

thursday

I had a weird dream about being on a roller coaster last night. I haven't been on one in more than 10 years (when I was about 19 or so, rides suddenly started making me sick, which sucked because I was ALWAYS into going on them, especially roller coasters!), so I wonder what it's relative to. especially since I was feeling really calm and almost meditative, and wondering why I wasn't screaming and laughing like everyone else on the ride. I was in the front seat, by myself. weird.

I'd been browsing one of the LC boards I frequent, and found a recipe for breakfast meatballs. awesome idea, I thought. I will totally remember where the recipe was, I thought. WRONG. after sifting through post after post, using the search functions and everything, I came up empty handed. so I tried to wing it, and ended up with the patties I had yesterday and today. which I shall refer to as "meat cookies" because a, they looked like cookies, b, they're about the size of a smallish cookie, and c, the name simultaneously amuses me, and completely grosses me out.

breakfast:
2 meat cookies (see? gross!)
leftover chayote squash
peanut butter
coconut oil

lunch:
chicken
salad
ranch
olive oil

snack:
homemade protein bar
crunchy cheese (not even a full serving. why did I even bother!)

dinner:
chicken
oopsie rolls
butter
peanut butter
green beans
red peppers

since I'm skating tonight, I'll likely have some coconut oil and/or a homemade mounds bar. :)

wednesday

I slept like a ROCK last night, thank goodness.

I'm getting nervous about the busy weekend ahead. mainly because of EATING. I could just kick myself for being worried! sunday is going to be a gong show from the time my feet hit the ground out of bed in the morning, until I lift them off the floor to go to bed. I'm sure I'll be prepared. I haven't been eating anything I haven't cooked myself lately. I know MY spice blends are sugar free, but restaurants...I'm just not super willing to take the chance yet.

breakfast:
oopsie french toast
butter
xylitol syrup

lunch:
little hamburger patties
cheese
mustard
leftover chicken

snack:
americano
cream
sweetner

this is a much less hungry day than yesterday. after the coffee I was SO FULL. I also feel like the flu is coming back. *insert chain of expletives here*ing flu anyway.

dinner:
chicken
chayote squash (cooked with butter, cinnamon, erythritol and pecans, SO GOOD)
salad
ranch
bacon bits
homemade mounds bar :)

tuesday

it's interesting how back in my teen years, I never ate breakfast, and now I'm all concerned with it. my goal is to have enough so that i'm not too hungry, and don't have to eat whatever snack I've taken to work, before lunch. I'm having breakfast right now and am genuinely concerned that I'll start feeling hungry around 11. annnnd, it's only 8. sheesh.

breakfast:
eggs
peppers
bacon
cheese
coconut oil

snack:
homemade protein bar (scroll down for the recipe! I used xylitol honey instead of the real stuff)

lunch:
beef chili
cheese
sour cream
coconut oil

this is a weirdly hungry day for me. I already feel like having another lunch, and this one wasn't overly small and definitely not low in fat.

snack:
homemade protein bar

by the time dinner rolled around, I was ravenous. (!?)

dinner:
chicken
salad
string beans
chayote squash (cooked like fried apples. sweet buddha, was it ever good)

I may or may not have one of the mounds bars I made yesterday. my scapegoat is officially hormones. :)

I had the mounds bar.

monday

I had the worst sleep I've had in months, if not years, last night. stupid time change. I tried to go to bed a *little* early. falling asleep was a huge problem, then staying asleep was a huge problem. I'd HOPED that I would sleep like a rock since I had practice last night, but no such luck. my sore throat is back full force.

speaking of which, it seems like the flu has become a far worse thing than it used to be (except for the times when it regularly killed people, anyway)! I remember that colds were 2-3 days, and the flu was 5-7 days. none of this recurring for a month BS. almost makes me wonder if the flu shot (which I NEVER get) has something to do with it. *shrug*

less induction-esque food choices this week! I've decided to reintroduce nuts first. I worked through the carb rungs in order in the summer, this time nuts are first.

breakfast:
bacon
oopsie french toast
butter
coconut oil
xylitol syrup
small piece of turkey (I wanted to make sure I was FULL!)

lunch:
turkey
peppers
mayo
coconut oil/cocoa/erythritol

snack:
homemade bounty/mounds bar (please see the recipe here! these are INCREDIBLE and Lauren is a genius!)

dinner:
turkey
salad
mashed cauliflower & gravy

day 14

I really hate daylight savings time. after the spring ahead, it takes me ages to get used to the new time! boo springing ahead, yay falling back.

I have a turkey in the oven for dinner, and I'm super excited about that!

breakfast:
omelet (eggs, chorizo, tomato, cheese, avocado, sour cream)

snack/lunch:
coconut oil w/cocoa & erythritol
turkey in marinara w/cheese

dinner:
roast turkey
mashed cauliflower
broccoli
gravy

I didn't even realize that I screwed up my veggies for the day! D'OH!!! now to decide if I need to make up for it...

day 13

why don't I eat splenda?

since my herbalist said that she'd rather see me "using hard drugs than eating splenda!", I've become a bit splenda-phobic. not that I think I'm going to accidentally ingest any, or that someone is going to hold a gun to my head and make me eat splenda granular with a spoon, but I can't help but feel a bit worried about how widespread it is, and how overwhelmingly sweet and splenda-ful so many of the products taste.

I know that tons of people use it to zero ill effect (and I almost wish I were one of those people), and that's great! I for one started getting weird side effects when I used to eat it daily. my lips, hands and feet started getting numb. I'd get weird tickly feelings in my face. I had anxiety attacks. all of this stuff went away when I stopped eating splenda. I'd started eating it again on this go of atkins out of sheer laziness, which is to say I was using atkins bars as snacks here and there. sure enough, I started getting weird tingles if I ate them too often. sometimes, I just don't learn.

so where am I going with this? nowhere. hahaha! I'm using xylitol, erythritol, and stevia as sweetners these days, to no ill effect, and finding that things sweetened this way are much better tasting (ie. no chemical taste). I'm sure it's a matter of time before someone finds serious fault with these natural alternatives, but until they do and I start getting numbness, tingling, etc from them, I'm pretty sure they're ok by me. :)

anyway...rant over.

breakfast:
oopsie french toast
xylitol syrup
butter
coconut oil
bacon

snack (ish)
decaf american
cream
xylitol & stevia

lunch:
1/4 chicken breast (seriously, what's the point! ha!)
hideous green chorizo
sour cream
salad
cheesecake

dinner:
zucchini "noodles"
marinara sauce
turkey
cheese

day 12

I'm feeling queasy today. hormones + flu, I guess. TMI? possibly. :)

breakfast:
breakfast sandwich on oopsies
decaf americano
cream

lunch:
chili
sour cream
other half of the zevia

dinner:
chicken
peppers
broccoli
(still feeling sick, didn't finish any of it)

after coming home STARVING (I guess whatever was making me queasy went away), I finished my piece of chicken and broccoli. and a piece of cheesecake. ha!

day 11

scale says 204-206! so stoked! so close to being under that accursed 200 lb mark.

I'm not feeling overly hungry today. I had breakfast probably before 8 am, and now it's a little after 2 pm, and I'm just now starting to feel hungry.

the green chili chorizo was tasty this morning, but visually oh so off-putting. I like to butterfly my sausage (which sounds like a filthy euphemism) to cook it, and I didn't take into account the fact that this was FRESH sausage, ie. not pressed like what you'd normally get from a package. the casings shrank, and I essentially had two clusters of meat broccoli. holy moley, was that ever ugly! they ended up being very filling, which is good, but the VISUAL. ugh.

breakfast:
chorizo
eggs

lunch:
beanless beef chili
sour cream
pumpkin cheesecake

dinner:
same as last night, except for the mushrooms, including the cheesecake. ah, leftovers.
1/2 orange zevia

day 10

waiting for the onslaught of hormones to go with the water retention. *yay!*

I'm still coughing my face off. if it's like this tomorrow, I'll go to the doctor. meh.

breakfast:
eggs
bacon
oopsie rolls

snack:
cheese. or more accurately, crunchy baked cheese.

lunch:
see yesterday's lunch. boring, you'd think, but leaving the meat/sauce overnight resulted in an exponential increase in deliciousness!
club soda w/stevia

dinner:
chicken breast
salad w/olive oil and a tiny bit of lemon juice
avocado
broccoli
mushrooms
pumpkin cheeseckae
whipped cream

day 9

it's not even 2 pm yet, and I've already had my 100 oz of water. :)

I'm wiped today, was up a good chunk of the night, coughing my head off. booooo. so now my chest hurts. I promise I will stop whining. at some point. ;)

breakfast:
eggs
sugar-free bacon

snack:
cheese

lunch:
zucchini "noodles"
meatballs
marinara sauce
cheesecake (unless I state otherwise, it's homemade, sweetened with erythritol and induction-legal. I'm getting lazy typing here.)

dinner:
see lunch. ha! I didn't have time to buy anything, and had some leftovers, soooo...
decaf americano with coffee cream, xylitol & stevia
one TINY slice of pepperoni

day 8

I feel slightly less horrid today. more like I have a cold instead of a hellflu. thank goodness.

I was EXTREMELY excited to find sausages today with no grains and no sugar at all in them! I took my sister to a Mexican deli, and found they had chorizo, which I love, with no fillers or artificial anything, which I ALSO love! so that's two good meat finds in two days. yay!

ALSO...I weighed in this morning. so I went from 209-211.5 down to 206-208! YAY! so 3 or 3.5 lbs this week. *happy dance* it took me from july until january to lose 25 lbs, so this is huge! hopefully this week will be good too.

breakfast:
steak
americano w/cream, xylitol & stevia

lunch:
chicken, turkey, and bacon
2 oopsies
butter
mayo
red peppers
homemade low carb cheesecake
orange zevia (1/2 can)

dinner:
same cheesecake as mentioned previously. I just had no time. maybe I'll have something reasonable later.

ok, so the "something reasonable" turned out to be straight-up veggies (with guacamole and sour cream as dip) at the meeting I was at, and now I'm STARVING. so I assume my carbs were too high, dammit. I was still full from lunch when I left. I kept my daily total well within the 2-3 cup limit.

maybe I should mention that, I'm keeping all my cheese/veggies/cream/etc well within the guidelines of induction. I've just been too lazy to post the measurements most of the time. :)

day 7

first, the complaining: the flu has fully moved into my lungs and sinuses. this SUCKS.

secondly, the food.

breakfast:
about 1/4 oz of cheese (had to take supplements with SOMETHING)
about a tablespoon of leftover mousse (see above comment, add in "I'm weak sometimes")

breakfast sandwich (eggs, cheese, bacon) on 2 oopsies
americano with heavy cream and stevia/xylitol

lunch:
roast beef
turkey
oopsies
mayo
mustard
club soda w/stevia

dinner:
steak
1/2 piece chicken
peppers
club soda w/stevia
piece of erythritol/stevia sweetened cheesecake

day 6

so the scrimmage last night WOULD have been fun, if I hadn't been feeling so crappy and had brought chairs so I could have sat down while scorekeeping. it's still good to see everyone, and to try not to breathe on them. ha.

breakfast:
half-assed huevos rancheros (basically an egg cooked with some leftover chili and a bit of cheese on top)
sour cream

snack:
1 oopsie roll. I can't resist them right out of the oven. and now I'm SO FULL.
butter

lunch:
pork chops
salad

dinner:
oopsie roll
butter
chocolate mousse, same way as earlier this week

I also had 2 cans of club soda with root beer stevia. :) this hasn't been an awesome day for me foodwise, clearly. my fever came back after being outside for 3 hours last night. d'oh. I'm missing a party right now as a result.

day 5

I should rename this blog "whining about the flu". I'm coughing a lot today and hating it. hating the cough, not necessarily the day. so far. ha!

breakfast:
hamburger patty
2 oopsie rolls
mustard
cheddar cheese
peppers (they're obviously my favourite!)

lunch:
1 oopsie roll
chicken breast pieces (not high enough in fat, but oh well)
sour cream
frank's red hot
1/2 can orange Zevia (best drink ever)

dinner:
beanless turkey chili
cheese
sour cream
other 1/2 of the Zevia. :)

I didn't mean to skimp on veggies today! there's quite a lot in the chili. I still should have snuck in a salad at lunch though.

day 4

I booked off work for today and tomorrow. this flu SUCKS.

also, it snowed last night, which mystifies me, given that it has been annoyingly, unseasonably mild lately. I wish it would stay, it's so pretty, but it's falling off the trees already.

anyhoo.

breakfast:
half-assed huevos rancheros

lunch:
leftover chili
3 oopsie rolls
butter

dinner:
steak
salad

dessert:
3 tbsp whipping cream w/1/2 tbsp cocoa, with stevia & erythritol

I've been craving sweet today and yesterday, which seems weird to me since I sailed through the first couple of days with zero cravings. I'm not sure if it was me deciding to only be sweet-free for three days and hitting the end of the time or what. Probably more of an emotional thing, as I had one of my triggers come up today, albeit in a strange way. I definitely felt like stuffing my feelings.

DAY the THIRD

I didn't get called into work today, thank vishnu. my suspicion that I was getting sick has been confirmed. evidently, at some point, I ordered a sore throat, and very uncomfortable, congested lungs. super.

on a likely-related note, I have no appetite at all right now. I'll make a note of it when I eat something.

and I had to weigh. 208-210 this morning. awwww yeah! BOO to my inconsistent scale, but I'll take it. I hadn't seen 208 at all yet, so that was exciting!

my teenage self is inside SHRIEKING furiously at me for being an idiot for being excited about 208 lbs, btw.

breakfast:
2 eggs with butter & coconut oil

lunch:
beanless chili
sour cream
cheese

dinner:
horrid horrible turkey wings (seriously...I don't often have culinary failures, but goddamn!)
broccoli
butter

my throat is so sore that swallowing is problematic. hopefully it'll be better tomorrow!

day 2

so far, so legal, so tired. i actually am not feeling well today. my chest is congested and I am also feeling a bit induction flu-ish! that shocks me, I hadn't realized how careless I'd become with carbs (the good ones, that is). I thought I'd sail through induction. WRONG. up yours, maltitol.

day 2 of no sweet. I'll do one more day of it. next week, I may allow some processed meats, apparently in moderation they're ok for induction. I wasn't going to, but after thinking about going up OWL rungs, I think I will. given how my mind works, I'd make that a whole other rung and drive myself insane finding new ways to punish myself. it's what I do, unfortunately.

breakfast:
leftover ground beef
peppers
1 tbsp sour cream

lunch:
leftover pork cutlets
peppers
butter & coconut oil

dinner:
steak
broccoli
mashed cauliflower
butter

I'm sticking to about 2 cups of veggies for the first few days. we'll see how it goes! also having a TON of water daily.

day 1 II

day 1 - 210-211.5 lbs (stupid scale, and stupid me for binging on carbs as means of self-medication)

ok!

so I'm off to a running start. ok, not so much. but so far, so good. one meal in and I'm being good. ;)

I should make a note of it that this is day 5 of the yam cream. I have to use it 12 days in a row, according to my herbalist, and I don't want to get it wrong just yet.

anyway! food:

breakfast:
1 egg
1/4 cup peppers
2.5 (SMALL) pork cutlets, seasoned with organic smoked garlic chipotle salt.

snack:
1 oz cheddar cheese

lunch:
ground beef with peppers and spices (yeah, I gotta take the time to shop and cook!)

snack:
1/2 pork cutlet, leftover from breakfast

dinner:
more ground beef (see previous shopping comment)
mashed cauliflower

I'm going to try to do a couple of days with no sweet at all, but I'm torn. I want to eat xylitol for its anti-candida properties. but I'll still try a couple of days without.

also, I want to just use himalayan crystal salt for cooking, as it actually has health benefits. the seasoning I used on my pork chops is actually made with it.

AND, I'm going to hopefully have my shit together well enough to not eat any kind of deli meats for the two weeks as well. I'm going to get some sugar-free bacon, I wish I could find sugar AND nitrate free in my area, but ah well.