caution: another busy weekend ahead

I'm trying to figure out if there's anything I can do today to make for less to do tomorrow to prepare for saturday. silliness, really, but my time tomorrow is limited. I got called into work for friday, and have a concert to go to that night, not to mention driving all over hell's half acre after work for various reasons. and I'll have NO time saturday morning at all. thanks, derby. ;)

breakfast:
eggs
cheese
salsa
sour cream

lunch:
roast beef
small handful of walnuts
americano w/cream & sweetener

dinner:
roast beef
chayote squash
mashed cauliflower

so I broke my nut rule again. I swear, they make a difference in my mood. I was feeling weird today, craving nuts like crazy, so I had maybe 5 or 6 walnuts, and felt notably better. maybe I'm lacking something they have in them. dunno. but I can't make it a daily habit.

or twice daily, and violating new dietary rules, like I did today. stupid anxiety. I wish I could say the snack didn't make me feel better, but it did. medicating with food is bad. I'm going to have nuts at breakfast tomorrow too, if I wake up anxious. lame. I hate justifying my own bullshit.

late:
1 square 90% cocoa
small handful of nuts
nut bar (I was making a batch for the bout and they were breaking up...and I'm weak. sigh.)

my league has a bout on saturday. I'm already nervous about clothes, even though everything is pretty much packed and ready to go. footwear is the bane of my existence right now.

breakfast:
eggs
cheese
pepperoni

lunch:
americano w/cream & sweetener (always, always decaf)
chicken
cheese (I bought a bunch of really good cheese the other day, and am being a bit nuts with it, clearly)

dinner:
zucchini noodles
sauce w/chicken & cheese

stupid grey day

crappy weather day, my mood is more suited to the sun today. ;)

breakfast:
omelet with leftover turkey taco meat, salsa, cheese, sour cream
coconut oil

coconut water (went skating, sweated my nonexistent balls off, needed to rehydrate)

lunch:
pepperoni
cheese
americano w/cream and sweetener

dinner:
chicken
salad w/dressing
broccoli w/butter
coconut oil

3 strawberries. I was at a party and didn't want to have another dinner and also didn't want to eat anything super high carb, so that was what I got away with. I'm not sure if I feel guilty or not.

day 2 of NO herbalist cream...don't forget.

practice was brutal last night. the only time in my life I've ever sweated as much as when I'm skating at practices was when I was doing ashtanga yoga all the time (which basically turned me into a sweat factory).

i think the coconut water is really good for hydrating, but I balk at the carbs in it. especially since after having it at friday's practice, I was STARVING when I got home. but I didn't eat, I just went to bed. it still beats gatorade, or that nestea crap with splenda in it.

FYI...splenda kills the good bacteria in your gut. not what you want, trust me.

anyhoo!

breakfast:
eggs
roast beef
tea w/cream, stevia

lunch:
pepperoni stick
americano w/cream, sweetener

dinner:
turkey
roast beef
salsa
sour cream
cheese

where did the nice weather go?

I don't know if it's like this for the rest of north america, but our weather forecasts are so inaccurate, that it's shocking. I used to listen to this one station, on AM no less, and I knew that whatever they said the next day's weather would be would be dead wrong. predicting sun? bring your umbrella. predicting rain? don't bother. anyway...yesterday was supposed to be nice (was ugly and rainy), today was supposed to rain, and so far, it's pretty good.

ah, banality. :D

so I made a batch of nut bars. eating them is a novelty now, but they just don't taste as awesome or addictive as they used to. which I'm counting as a huge win. :D and I'm supposed to be going out for lunch today, which my control freak tendencies are not looking forward to.

breakfast:
yogurt w/almond butter and a chopped up nut bar

lunch:
eggs, bacon & chorizo
few bites of hash browns (WHY? I have NO idea.)
americano w/cream & sweetener
1/2 nut bar
1 small square lindt 85%

dinner:
chicken
salad
other half of the aforementioned nut bar

coconut water

saturdaaay

breakfast:
leftover pork (that would make a good band name, hahaha)
oopsie rolls w/almond butter and sf peach preserves
small handful of nuts (like 6 nuts total)

snack (breakfast was obscenely early, I couldn't sleep!):
cinnamon bun muffin and a half (which I made: coconut flour, sweetened with erythritol, xylito, stevia and 1 tsp of molasses for the entire batch)
americano w/cream & sweetener

lunch:
leftover pork
nut bar

dinner:
chicken
salad
nut bar

I got totally manhandled by my chiropractor yesterday, and am sore today! ye gads.

so my weight is finally starting to creep down. snacking and desserts, which count as a second and oftentimes a third, were the culprits, I guess! I've been drinking club soda with stevia, so the taste of sweet doesn't seem to be the problem. anyway...yay! I'm sticking with the no-s. it's not painful, and I realistically should be eating that way anyway. even though I'm rarely hungry for lunch anymore.

breakfast:
steak
mozzarella cheese

lunch:
iced espresso, cream, sweetener

dinner:
pulled pork of extreme awesomeness, as i'm now calling it. it's pork tenderloin with SF peach preserves, fresh jalapeno peppers, onions, salt, etc, cooked to the point of falling apart goodness.
broccoli
red peppers

I'm also having a half-serving of coconut water, bringing it to practice. that stuff is nature's gatorade. hahahaha!

Total Calories: 1323

6%	60%	34%
Carbs	Fats	Protein

net carbs: 18.1 (thanks, coconut water)