day 6

so the scrimmage last night WOULD have been fun, if I hadn't been feeling so crappy and had brought chairs so I could have sat down while scorekeeping. it's still good to see everyone, and to try not to breathe on them. ha.

breakfast:
half-assed huevos rancheros (basically an egg cooked with some leftover chili and a bit of cheese on top)
sour cream

snack:
1 oopsie roll. I can't resist them right out of the oven. and now I'm SO FULL.
butter

lunch:
pork chops
salad

dinner:
oopsie roll
butter
chocolate mousse, same way as earlier this week

I also had 2 cans of club soda with root beer stevia. :) this hasn't been an awesome day for me foodwise, clearly. my fever came back after being outside for 3 hours last night. d'oh. I'm missing a party right now as a result.

day 5

I should rename this blog "whining about the flu". I'm coughing a lot today and hating it. hating the cough, not necessarily the day. so far. ha!

breakfast:
hamburger patty
2 oopsie rolls
mustard
cheddar cheese
peppers (they're obviously my favourite!)

lunch:
1 oopsie roll
chicken breast pieces (not high enough in fat, but oh well)
sour cream
frank's red hot
1/2 can orange Zevia (best drink ever)

dinner:
beanless turkey chili
cheese
sour cream
other 1/2 of the Zevia. :)

I didn't mean to skimp on veggies today! there's quite a lot in the chili. I still should have snuck in a salad at lunch though.

day 4

I booked off work for today and tomorrow. this flu SUCKS.

also, it snowed last night, which mystifies me, given that it has been annoyingly, unseasonably mild lately. I wish it would stay, it's so pretty, but it's falling off the trees already.

anyhoo.

breakfast:
half-assed huevos rancheros

lunch:
leftover chili
3 oopsie rolls
butter

dinner:
steak
salad

dessert:
3 tbsp whipping cream w/1/2 tbsp cocoa, with stevia & erythritol

I've been craving sweet today and yesterday, which seems weird to me since I sailed through the first couple of days with zero cravings. I'm not sure if it was me deciding to only be sweet-free for three days and hitting the end of the time or what. Probably more of an emotional thing, as I had one of my triggers come up today, albeit in a strange way. I definitely felt like stuffing my feelings.

DAY the THIRD

I didn't get called into work today, thank vishnu. my suspicion that I was getting sick has been confirmed. evidently, at some point, I ordered a sore throat, and very uncomfortable, congested lungs. super.

on a likely-related note, I have no appetite at all right now. I'll make a note of it when I eat something.

and I had to weigh. 208-210 this morning. awwww yeah! BOO to my inconsistent scale, but I'll take it. I hadn't seen 208 at all yet, so that was exciting!

my teenage self is inside SHRIEKING furiously at me for being an idiot for being excited about 208 lbs, btw.

breakfast:
2 eggs with butter & coconut oil

lunch:
beanless chili
sour cream
cheese

dinner:
horrid horrible turkey wings (seriously...I don't often have culinary failures, but goddamn!)
broccoli
butter

my throat is so sore that swallowing is problematic. hopefully it'll be better tomorrow!

day 2

so far, so legal, so tired. i actually am not feeling well today. my chest is congested and I am also feeling a bit induction flu-ish! that shocks me, I hadn't realized how careless I'd become with carbs (the good ones, that is). I thought I'd sail through induction. WRONG. up yours, maltitol.

day 2 of no sweet. I'll do one more day of it. next week, I may allow some processed meats, apparently in moderation they're ok for induction. I wasn't going to, but after thinking about going up OWL rungs, I think I will. given how my mind works, I'd make that a whole other rung and drive myself insane finding new ways to punish myself. it's what I do, unfortunately.

breakfast:
leftover ground beef
peppers
1 tbsp sour cream

lunch:
leftover pork cutlets
peppers
butter & coconut oil

dinner:
steak
broccoli
mashed cauliflower
butter

I'm sticking to about 2 cups of veggies for the first few days. we'll see how it goes! also having a TON of water daily.

day 1 II

day 1 - 210-211.5 lbs (stupid scale, and stupid me for binging on carbs as means of self-medication)

ok!

so I'm off to a running start. ok, not so much. but so far, so good. one meal in and I'm being good. ;)

I should make a note of it that this is day 5 of the yam cream. I have to use it 12 days in a row, according to my herbalist, and I don't want to get it wrong just yet.

anyway! food:

breakfast:
1 egg
1/4 cup peppers
2.5 (SMALL) pork cutlets, seasoned with organic smoked garlic chipotle salt.

snack:
1 oz cheddar cheese

lunch:
ground beef with peppers and spices (yeah, I gotta take the time to shop and cook!)

snack:
1/2 pork cutlet, leftover from breakfast

dinner:
more ground beef (see previous shopping comment)
mashed cauliflower

I'm going to try to do a couple of days with no sweet at all, but I'm torn. I want to eat xylitol for its anti-candida properties. but I'll still try a couple of days without.

also, I want to just use himalayan crystal salt for cooking, as it actually has health benefits. the seasoning I used on my pork chops is actually made with it.

AND, I'm going to hopefully have my shit together well enough to not eat any kind of deli meats for the two weeks as well. I'm going to get some sugar-free bacon, I wish I could find sugar AND nitrate free in my area, but ah well.

once again!

a terrible blogger am I. I think this entire thing needs an overhaul.

anyway.

I've been holding pretty steady at 209. not where I want to be, and I was hoping for more motion! sheesh. I made the decision to go back on induction, starting monday. I may even post menus! *gasp*

today was my first fairly full-on cheat day. it was a friend's 30th birthday, and I'd been debating for literally a couple of weeks if I wanted to eat bad food or not. when it came down to it, I did. tortilla chips, cake, and lasagna with noodles (albeit not many noodles, but still). I was feeling ill all day, so I figured "well, I already feel shitty!" dumb reasoning. and no excuses. tomorrow is another day, and I'm excited to go full-on on monday! now if only I could find no-sugar mayo.

I also discovered that my blood sugar DOES get impacted by maltitol! holy crap. it's so high on the GI that you may as well just eat sugar and not suffer the insane stomach rebellion. sucrose is 50, maltitol is 38. 38!!!!! honestly, what's the point? after my consultation with my herbalist, I came home and threw away ALL of my maltitol and splenda containing foods. time to start fresh again. today was the biggest slip, but it was a conscious choice. it'll be interesting to see how I feel tomorrow.

and of course, I'm home alone all night, and I keep hearing weird sounds and freaking myself out entirely. I hope I actually get some sleep.