whew!

so in the past >month, I lost over 6% of my bodyweight. yay! :)

the canucks COULD win the stanley cup tonight. they have to. if this series goes to game 7, it might kill me. I'm palms-sweatingly nervous for the game tonight. also...canucks games (and village market days) are now my semi-off-plan days, ie. if I'm optionless, or am dying for something not-quite-low-carb, I can have A LITTLE. good thing the season is almost over, and markets are every 2 weeks instead of every week. gotta be careful. :)

starting this week, yoga yoga yoga, and then either this week or next, I'm going to start the Cto5K program. I HATE running, but I think it would be a valuable skill. ha! wish me luck.

P3, doo do doo

I'm cutting my VLCD short. I'm too cold, my hair is falling out, I haven't hit my "sweet spot" with HCG dosing, and I'm just not in the right mindframe for it (THANKS, HOCKEY). so I shall be low carbing again! I WILL do this diet again, but I'll be better prepared with more info and better supplementation. looking forward to it, actually! and I still lost 11ish lbs in less than 3 weeks.

anyway! really excited to be able to expand my food choices. I ate off plan a few times and was surprised/pleased to see that I just don't have the space for the food I used to (at this point anyway)!

so yeah! that's that for now. :)

oh sleep, why have you forsaken me?

between my bladder and my brain not being able to accept that it gets light WAY TOO FRICKIN EARLY, I'm getting nowhere near enough sleep lately. as a night owl, this pattern is making me miserable. I'm SO tired today that I don't even trust myself to do certain tasks at work! that's not good. driving is a fun challenge today too. hrmph.

as of today, I'm down 8 lbs. blows my fricking mind. 4 lbs from pre-loading weight. I am really looking forward to being done this phase and back to regular low carb.

it's my mom's birthday this coming week, and I'm pretty sure the cake making will fall onto me. that is gonna be rough! luckily I really don't like fondant (for eating, anyway), so that's one less temptation. but the cake itself? oof.

I should be working...so now I shall. :)

I'm a horrible blogger!

HEY GUYS!

so I decided to give the HCG diet a try, and so far, despite being hungry and tired, it's worth it. I figure I can do almost anything for 3 weeks, and this shouldn't be an exception. :) so three weeks HCG, then low carb for at least 6, then another cycle. I can't believe I don't feel worse on such low calories...it's pretty awesome.

that's it for now! :)

learning

so I had pancakes. they tasted really good, and now I have no energy. I'm literally almost nodding off. DULY NOTED.

better option? bacon. but that's how this morning panned out. I'll be a pork nazi on monday. :)

huge shock here, BUT...

...a particularly bad hormonal cycle pushed me over the edge of sugar cliff this week, big time. gah! trying to get back on track one meal at a time, but I don't think I'll be able to get right back up on it until monday. which isn't being defeatist or whatever, this weekend is just going to be about baking. it's my great-nephew's (gah! great anything attached to any title of mine is freaky) baby shower on sunday, so it's on me to make a fondant covered, intricately decorated cake for the occasion (plus cupcakes). once that's over and done with, I can get back to normal, whatever that is for me. well...low carb anyway. :)

awriiight!

so I'm down a couple more lbs from the looks of it, so that brings it to 20. yay! if only that were a significant percentage of what I NEED to lose...argh. intead of focusing on it, I'm trying to think of doing this for the duration. the odd off meal or even off day is fine. the odd off week or month or consecutive weeks/month though? not ok.

anyway...you'd think I'd be an ace at dieting/lifestyle by now, I've been at it for so long! :P

it's been yoga yoga yoga, work work work, and too many nuts so far this week. I discovered almond meal crackers. it's all over, folks. I just want to eat those and that's it. hahaha! I kid, I'm reining (spelling? looks wrong) the nut consumption in a little, as I think they make me retain some water. as someone whose body LOVES to retain water...yeah, I don't need it.

also...I'm exhausted all the time lately, which sucks. I think it's my upstairs neighbour getting up at an ungodly hour to get to work, and when he showers, it's thunderous in my bedroom. I still can't get used to it. bah.

other than that...things are sailing along, I suppose...

the six week challenge is over...

...and I'm down 17 lbs! yay! 17 badly needed lbs. it's awful how high I let it get, but at least I stopped it, riiiight? there's another challenge starting in may, so I'll be low carbing from here on in. but more carbs between now and then, so I can drop down during challenge time.

pretty stoked! :D

wow.

I'd had NO idea I'd left this blog for over a year! I've been struggling with some stuff. no excuse, really, but I have! hahaha!

still going with counting calories and avoiding grains, sugar, and carby fruits and veg. AND keeping down my nut consumption, which I think may have been my achilles heel before. I haven't had much appetite the past couple of days. too bad that likely won't stick around. :)

superbowl sunday tomorrow, or rather, drunken stuperbowl sunday. I won't be partaking, but I will be partaying. and will have to eat pre-party.

anyway. :)

oh hi!

I'm back low carbing again! man, I don't know WHY I ever stop. I blame issues. ;)

anyway, two of my sisters and I joined a weight loss challenge with a local trainer, so I jumped right back on the LC bandwagon (where I belong, dammit), only I'm counting calories during the week as well as avoiding grains/sugars, and just watching carbs by themselves on the weekends.

anyway...hi! once I get back online proper, maybe I'll blog some more. :)

finally got brave...ish.

I got on the scale yesterday morning. ye gads. I know I've lost a bit of weight since giving sugar and grains the ol' heave ho, but I'm still up almost 15 lbs from my what...two months of carbauchery?! goddamn! at least I stopped it before I gained ALL of the weight I'd lost. I'm so mad at myself though. it took me 10 months to lose 32 or so lbs, and 2 months to gain half of it back. shocking.

I'm still being good foodwise. I think I just need to look at it from a health perspective and just do occasional weighing. and, as I say repeatedly, exercise more.

anyway! I'll check in more often. hope everyone's doing wonderfully well. :)

boop boop

yesterday, my sister and I blew off almost an entire day of work (save for maybe an hour) to go to the beach. this particular beach is secluded, so in my current fear of public bathing suit scrutiny state, I was in favour of it. trouble is, it's at the bottom of a rather large cliff. then there's the barnacles, but that's another story. anyhow, for the first while, it was glorious! the water is super salty, so you're buoyant to the point where even your feet want to spring out of the water. and there wasn't a soul around, except for literally dozens of eagles circling overhead.

at first.

first, a couple of boats moored themselves not too far away. ok, fine, I thought, I can't make out their faces so I don't really care. then some climbers came. THEN the huge fracas from the coast guard. two helicopters, the hovercraft (going at unearthly speeds), AND the coast guard boat. we thought someone must have been reported missing, and my sister's town is pretty small, so she was worried it was someone she knows. it turns out they were looking for a fugitive, who happens to be her friend's stepson (though she hadn't been in touch with him much for years), and apparently he's wanted on suspicion of murder! ugh, the whole thing just makes me feel ill, apparently the case is pretty big news, and pretty gruesome.

anyhow.

everything is peachy keen on the food front, at least. :)

interesting thing this time around. generally, I'm a late night eater. since re-starting LC, I'm pretty disinterested in food later, and genuinely don't feel hungry at all after dinner. thank goodness. I was getting good at eating late again. :)

I'm still not exercising enough, and getting annoyed. I don't know why I seem to think it's soooooo difficult to get the time in when I have NOTHING but spare time lately. pffft. my sister has a wii fit, and talk about fun. I wish I had one!

anyhow...here's a little something that I thought was kinda funny! so cute.

ok, really back. day one yet again!

heh.

I'm finally back on it. last time I tried to go back, it was with resistance for some stupid reason, like I hadn't gained back enough weight yet or something equally idiotic. but I feel accepting and better. I'm tired of retaining all this water.

my sister was given a huge package of homemade beef jerky (she's back on the wagon too, so my in-person support system is back, yay!) and gave me some. pretty excited about that. I'm thisclose to buying a dehydrator, I think it would be nice to be able to make some nice jerky.

our last bout of the season was this saturday. I've been depressed which = me being super lazy and eating starch, so this was a shock to the system to be skating and generally being in motion so much in one day. most of it on concrete. which isn't good. anyway, was I SORE when I got up on sunday! must do more skating and get back on it. anyway, the bout was good, setup was a breeze, everything was cool. I feel like I'm losing my passion for it though, and that freaks me out. we're due for a month-long break, and I hope that it'll rejuvenate me. ESPECIALLY since it'll start being cooler in our practice spaces!

so yeah, there it is. back on it. I'm thinking I want to lean more on the primal side of things, but the important thing is that I'm back. :)

*knock...knock...knock*

helloooooo? *crickets*

I'm not dead, but I've been stumbling, big time, and feeling a combination of shame and total un-wanting of accountability. sigh. I wasn't getting the results I used to get with low-carb, and was just frustrated and feeling like there wasn't any sweetness or gratification in any area of my life, so something, unfortunately, had to give. I hadn't realized I was feeling deprived. now to work thorough all that.

I'll update more often now! hope everyone's well and doing less dietary damage to themselves than I have been as of late. this is no excuse, but we've had an INSANE heat wave here, and (and I have no idea why) when I feel sick from the heat, a bit of sugar helped. gah! the wave is now over though. time to at least start picking up the pieces. I'm not eating crap at every meal, and am really feeling the extent of the degree to which grains ruin my life. so that's something to take from it, I guess. babble babble babble or what?

I'm also confused about a guy, but that's not news...they generally confuse me. I thought I'd have it figured out by this time, but nooooo.

oh well, whatever! trying to work on getting better habits back. and to not make excuses. I effed up. oops! I need to start being better. at least I'm doing better than going an entire year without even trying. right? :)

whoops!

ok, here's what I ate yesterday as I remember it (not in any particular order):
soup
nuts
chicken
homemade LC chocolate custard
eggs
cheese

annnnd today:
eggs w/jalapeno jack cheese

super busy day at work...

...and now I'm just FRIED from tiredness. gabba gabba what?

breakfast:
eggs
cheese

snack:
cocoa nuts

lunch:
buffalo wings
iced espresso w/cream and sweetener
nuts

dinner:
homemade veggie soup
chicken

ok, let's do this!

I have been SUPER lazy this past week, not just with the blogging. it's definitely not working for me, I feel pretty gross. I wonder why it's so hard to break bad habits and SO easy to break good ones?

breakfast:
steak
egg

lunch:
steak
salad (which ended up being disgusting, so I didn't eat it)

snack:
few nuts
bit of chicken
whole bunch of cocoa roasted nuts

dinner:
chicken
broccoli
butter

during meeting snack:
more of those nuts, even though I ate enough to make me feel unwell earlier...duhhh.
few snow peas

...and I'm back!

...almost. :)

menu tracking to begin again tomorrow, yay! I want to try to eat more soup this week. so I'm making chicken stock RIGHT NOW, and have my veggies ready to go so I can make some tomorrow.

anyhow...I missed you! ;)