on my weigh...again

whew!

2011-06-13T11:12:00.000-07:00

so in the past >month, I lost over 6% of my bodyweight. yay! :)

the canucks COULD win the stanley cup tonight. they have to. if this series goes to game 7, it might kill me. I'm palms-sweatingly nervous for the game tonight. also...canucks games (and village market days) are now my semi-off-plan days, ie. if I'm optionless, or am dying for something not-quite-low-carb, I can have A LITTLE. good thing the season is almost over, and markets are every 2 weeks instead of every week. gotta be careful. :)

starting this week, yoga yoga yoga, and then either this week or next, I'm going to start the Cto5K program. I HATE running, but I think it would be a valuable skill. ha! wish me luck.

P3, doo do doo

2011-06-07T22:22:00.001-07:00

I'm cutting my VLCD short. I'm too cold, my hair is falling out, I haven't hit my "sweet spot" with HCG dosing, and I'm just not in the right mindframe for it (THANKS, HOCKEY). so I shall be low carbing again! I WILL do this diet again, but I'll be better prepared with more info and better supplementation. looking forward to it, actually! and I still lost 11ish lbs in less than 3 weeks.

anyway! really excited to be able to expand my food choices. I ate off plan a few times and was surprised/pleased to see that I just don't have the space for the food I used to (at this point anyway)!

so yeah! that's that for now. :)

oh sleep, why have you forsaken me?

2011-05-26T09:55:00.000-07:00

between my bladder and my brain not being able to accept that it gets light WAY TOO FRICKIN EARLY, I'm getting nowhere near enough sleep lately. as a night owl, this pattern is making me miserable. I'm SO tired today that I don't even trust myself to do certain tasks at work! that's not good. driving is a fun challenge today too. hrmph.

as of today, I'm down 8 lbs. blows my fricking mind. 4 lbs from pre-loading weight. I am really looking forward to being done this phase and back to regular low carb.

it's my mom's birthday this coming week, and I'm pretty sure the cake making will fall onto me. that is gonna be rough! luckily I really don't like fondant (for eating, anyway), so that's one less temptation. but the cake itself? oof.

I should be working...so now I shall. :)

I'm a horrible blogger!

2011-05-23T11:54:00.000-07:00

HEY GUYS!

so I decided to give the HCG diet a try, and so far, despite being hungry and tired, it's worth it. I figure I can do almost anything for 3 weeks, and this shouldn't be an exception. :) so three weeks HCG, then low carb for at least 6, then another cycle. I can't believe I don't feel worse on such low calories...it's pretty awesome.

that's it for now! :)

learning

2011-03-26T12:01:00.001-07:00

so I had pancakes. they tasted really good, and now I have no energy. I'm literally almost nodding off. DULY NOTED.

better option? bacon. but that's how this morning panned out. I'll be a pork nazi on monday. :)

huge shock here, BUT...

2011-03-25T16:52:00.001-07:00

...a particularly bad hormonal cycle pushed me over the edge of sugar cliff this week, big time. gah! trying to get back on track one meal at a time, but I don't think I'll be able to get right back up on it until monday. which isn't being defeatist or whatever, this weekend is just going to be about baking. it's my great-nephew's (gah! great anything attached to any title of mine is freaky) baby shower on sunday, so it's on me to make a fondant covered, intricately decorated cake for the occasion (plus cupcakes). once that's over and done with, I can get back to normal, whatever that is for me. well...low carb anyway. :)

awriiight!

2011-03-13T23:25:00.000-07:00

so I'm down a couple more lbs from the looks of it, so that brings it to 20. yay! if only that were a significant percentage of what I NEED to lose...argh. intead of focusing on it, I'm trying to think of doing this for the duration. the odd off meal or even off day is fine. the odd off week or month or consecutive weeks/month though? not ok.

anyway...you'd think I'd be an ace at dieting/lifestyle by now, I've been at it for so long! :P

2011-03-03T20:05:00.000-08:00

it's been yoga yoga yoga, work work work, and too many nuts so far this week. I discovered almond meal crackers. it's all over, folks. I just want to eat those and that's it. hahaha! I kid, I'm reining (spelling? looks wrong) the nut consumption in a little, as I think they make me retain some water. as someone whose body LOVES to retain water...yeah, I don't need it.

also...I'm exhausted all the time lately, which sucks. I think it's my upstairs neighbour getting up at an ungodly hour to get to work, and when he showers, it's thunderous in my bedroom. I still can't get used to it. bah.

other than that...things are sailing along, I suppose...

the six week challenge is over...

2011-03-01T18:11:00.000-08:00

...and I'm down 17 lbs! yay! 17 badly needed lbs. it's awful how high I let it get, but at least I stopped it, riiiight? there's another challenge starting in may, so I'll be low carbing from here on in. but more carbs between now and then, so I can drop down during challenge time.

pretty stoked! :D

wow.

2011-02-06T01:21:00.000-08:00

I'd had NO idea I'd left this blog for over a year! I've been struggling with some stuff. no excuse, really, but I have! hahaha!

still going with counting calories and avoiding grains, sugar, and carby fruits and veg. AND keeping down my nut consumption, which I think may have been my achilles heel before. I haven't had much appetite the past couple of days. too bad that likely won't stick around. :)

superbowl sunday tomorrow, or rather, drunken stuperbowl sunday. I won't be partaking, but I will be partaying. and will have to eat pre-party.

anyway. :)

oh hi!

2011-01-26T14:10:00.000-08:00

I'm back low carbing again! man, I don't know WHY I ever stop. I blame issues. ;)

anyway, two of my sisters and I joined a weight loss challenge with a local trainer, so I jumped right back on the LC bandwagon (where I belong, dammit), only I'm counting calories during the week as well as avoiding grains/sugars, and just watching carbs by themselves on the weekends.

anyway...hi! once I get back online proper, maybe I'll blog some more. :)

finally got brave...ish.

2009-08-28T21:53:00.000-07:00

I got on the scale yesterday morning. ye gads. I know I've lost a bit of weight since giving sugar and grains the ol' heave ho, but I'm still up almost 15 lbs from my what...two months of carbauchery?! goddamn! at least I stopped it before I gained ALL of the weight I'd lost. I'm so mad at myself though. it took me 10 months to lose 32 or so lbs, and 2 months to gain half of it back. shocking.

I'm still being good foodwise. I think I just need to look at it from a health perspective and just do occasional weighing. and, as I say repeatedly, exercise more.

anyway! I'll check in more often. hope everyone's doing wonderfully well. :)

boop boop

2009-08-20T20:06:00.000-07:00

yesterday, my sister and I blew off almost an entire day of work (save for maybe an hour) to go to the beach. this particular beach is secluded, so in my current fear of public bathing suit scrutiny state, I was in favour of it. trouble is, it's at the bottom of a rather large cliff. then there's the barnacles, but that's another story. anyhow, for the first while, it was glorious! the water is super salty, so you're buoyant to the point where even your feet want to spring out of the water. and there wasn't a soul around, except for literally dozens of eagles circling overhead.

at first.

first, a couple of boats moored themselves not too far away. ok, fine, I thought, I can't make out their faces so I don't really care. then some climbers came. THEN the huge fracas from the coast guard. two helicopters, the hovercraft (going at unearthly speeds), AND the coast guard boat. we thought someone must have been reported missing, and my sister's town is pretty small, so she was worried it was someone she knows. it turns out they were looking for a fugitive, who happens to be her friend's stepson (though she hadn't been in touch with him much for years), and apparently he's wanted on suspicion of murder! ugh, the whole thing just makes me feel ill, apparently the case is pretty big news, and pretty gruesome.

anyhow.

everything is peachy keen on the food front, at least. :)

2009-08-13T00:32:00.000-07:00

interesting thing this time around. generally, I'm a late night eater. since re-starting LC, I'm pretty disinterested in food later, and genuinely don't feel hungry at all after dinner. thank goodness. I was getting good at eating late again. :)

I'm still not exercising enough, and getting annoyed. I don't know why I seem to think it's soooooo difficult to get the time in when I have NOTHING but spare time lately. pffft. my sister has a wii fit, and talk about fun. I wish I had one!

anyhow...here's a little something that I thought was kinda funny! so cute.

ok, really back. day one yet again!

2009-08-10T11:17:00.000-07:00

heh.

I'm finally back on it. last time I tried to go back, it was with resistance for some stupid reason, like I hadn't gained back enough weight yet or something equally idiotic. but I feel accepting and better. I'm tired of retaining all this water.

my sister was given a huge package of homemade beef jerky (she's back on the wagon too, so my in-person support system is back, yay!) and gave me some. pretty excited about that. I'm thisclose to buying a dehydrator, I think it would be nice to be able to make some nice jerky.

our last bout of the season was this saturday. I've been depressed which = me being super lazy and eating starch, so this was a shock to the system to be skating and generally being in motion so much in one day. most of it on concrete. which isn't good. anyway, was I SORE when I got up on sunday! must do more skating and get back on it. anyway, the bout was good, setup was a breeze, everything was cool. I feel like I'm losing my passion for it though, and that freaks me out. we're due for a month-long break, and I hope that it'll rejuvenate me. ESPECIALLY since it'll start being cooler in our practice spaces!

so yeah, there it is. back on it. I'm thinking I want to lean more on the primal side of things, but the important thing is that I'm back. :)

knock...knock...knock

2009-08-01T21:51:00.001-07:00

helloooooo? *crickets*

I'm not dead, but I've been stumbling, big time, and feeling a combination of shame and total un-wanting of accountability. sigh. I wasn't getting the results I used to get with low-carb, and was just frustrated and feeling like there wasn't any sweetness or gratification in any area of my life, so something, unfortunately, had to give. I hadn't realized I was feeling deprived. now to work thorough all that.

I'll update more often now! hope everyone's well and doing less dietary damage to themselves than I have been as of late. this is no excuse, but we've had an INSANE heat wave here, and (and I have no idea why) when I feel sick from the heat, a bit of sugar helped. gah! the wave is now over though. time to at least start picking up the pieces. I'm not eating crap at every meal, and am really feeling the extent of the degree to which grains ruin my life. so that's something to take from it, I guess. babble babble babble or what?

I'm also confused about a guy, but that's not news...they generally confuse me. I thought I'd have it figured out by this time, but nooooo.

oh well, whatever! trying to work on getting better habits back. and to not make excuses. I effed up. oops! I need to start being better. at least I'm doing better than going an entire year without even trying. right? :)

whoops!

2009-06-25T11:02:00.000-07:00

ok, here's what I ate yesterday as I remember it (not in any particular order):
soup
nuts
chicken
homemade LC chocolate custard
eggs
cheese

annnnd today:
eggs w/jalapeno jack cheese

super busy day at work...

2009-06-23T18:31:00.001-07:00

...and now I'm just FRIED from tiredness. gabba gabba what?

breakfast:
eggs
cheese

snack:
cocoa nuts

lunch:
buffalo wings
iced espresso w/cream and sweetener
nuts

dinner:
homemade veggie soup
chicken

ok, let's do this!

2009-06-22T07:36:00.000-07:00

I have been SUPER lazy this past week, not just with the blogging. it's definitely not working for me, I feel pretty gross. I wonder why it's so hard to break bad habits and SO easy to break good ones?

breakfast:
steak
egg

lunch:
steak
salad (which ended up being disgusting, so I didn't eat it)

snack:
few nuts
bit of chicken
whole bunch of cocoa roasted nuts

dinner:
chicken
broccoli
butter

during meeting snack:
more of those nuts, even though I ate enough to make me feel unwell earlier...duhhh.
few snow peas

...and I'm back!

2009-06-21T19:38:00.000-07:00

...almost. :)

menu tracking to begin again tomorrow, yay! I want to try to eat more soup this week. so I'm making chicken stock RIGHT NOW, and have my veggies ready to go so I can make some tomorrow.

anyhow...I missed you! ;)

still lazy.

2009-06-16T16:00:00.000-07:00

I'm taking a few more days off of food logging. :) back in a bit!

yeah, I'm lazy!

2009-06-14T09:09:00.001-07:00

and am, clearly, taking the weekend off of logging my food. still on plan though. :)

hope you're having an awesome weekend!

so it appears to be friday yet again

2009-06-12T10:56:00.000-07:00

I'm at work. it's sports day at the school I was assigned to, and MAN is it quiet. like...nothing to do. not only that, but the one task I had to do, i can't, thanks to a network issue. oh joy. I'm actually BORED, and that doesn't happen often.

breakfast:
egg
bit of leftovers (chicken, mashed cauliflower, gravy)

snack:
nuts
chocolate (90% of course)

lunch:
chicken wings
iced espresso

dinner:
see breakfast, minus egg

snack:
chicken wings

2009-06-11T09:53:00.000-07:00

the good ol' healing itch has settled in on the tattoo. good LORD.

breakfast:
leftover turkey & cheese (like...a few tablespoons' worth)
lemon tart

lunch:
chicken wings
iced espresso w/cream & sweetener
cheese
strawberries

dinner:
chicken
mashed cauliflower
gravy (thickened with thickenthin and cream)
lemon tart

is it wednesday already? good lord.

2009-06-10T10:06:00.000-07:00

no work today, but definitely work on friday. possibly tomorrow too, hopefully!

if you're on facebook, I HIGHLY recommend becoming a fan of "Laughing when someone falls". the videos are horridly funny!

breakfast:
eggs with super fricking hot, membrane-searing chipotle chicken sausage (ye gads) and cheese
couple of walnuts
square of chocolate (in my tired state, I thought this might cool my mouth! HAHAHA, what an idiot. it actually did kind of work.)

lunch:
yogurt
nuts
chocolate

I went to a wake. you can call it a celebration of life, but a funeral is still a funeral. my eye spigots are a bit leaky still. :(

"snack":
iced espresso w/cream & stevia

dinner:
turkey taco salad (taco spiced ground turkey, cheese, sour cream, salsa, lettuce)
lemon curd/almond shortbread tart

dues-day

2009-06-09T10:56:00.000-07:00

I'm SO tired today! it's too warm to sleep with my window closed, and as it turns out, I'm a bit of a light sleeper. booooo. there's a lot of random noise at inconvenient times.

breakfast:
tall decaf whole milk latte
starbucks sausage breakfast sandwich without the english muffin
to which I added:
cheese
bacon bits
avocado
bit of SF ketchup

lunch:
couple squares of dark chocolate
handful of nuts

snack:
iced espresso w/cream and stevia
few strawberries
hwc
(I bought strawberries and couldn't resist them!)

dinner will consist of bbq chicken (no bbq sauce), smokies, veggies, cheese (HALLOUMI, mmmmmmm), and i'm making a variant of a lemon curd tart (as seen on the wonderful Hobbiton Hankerings, possibly with whipped cream. :)

(listed already in case I forget or get the lazies. will edit for accuracy if anything changes!)

yay work!

2009-06-08T11:08:00.000-07:00

I'm using the term "work" loosely. I'm filling in at a school where the secretary doesn't like much of her own stuff done, so here I am zoning out, genuinely concerned about my awakeness for the day. ha!

my tattoo is awesome. I will post pics when it is less red. I absolutely made the right choice of artist, and I'm so happy!

I'm calling a mulligan on yesterday's post. I was actually pretty good on plan all day, and then after the tattoo (which had me seated in front of a full length mirror for 3 or so hours, and let me tell you, that was traumatic and discouraging), I had a few handfuls of tortilla chips. ARRRRGH! I would say "I don't know WHY I did that", but it was this: completely counterproductive self-medication. that mirror was upsetting.

anyway.

breakfast:
pumpkin "loaf"
hwc
small piece of cheese

lunch:
chicken wings
iced espresso w/cream & stevia
few nuts, <1 square of chocolate

dinner:
steak
salad w/ranch dressing
avocado, salsa, sour cream

dessert? I guess?:
stick of pepperoni

ack!

2009-06-06T08:52:00.001-07:00

gottarunin20minutesnotreadybadhairgonnahaveleaguephotosandthe
bouttodayandimsotiredsomeoneshootme!

breakfast:
bacon
eggs
two bites of pumpkin loaf (trying to be accountable here)

snacks (another write off day...not prepared):
strawberries
raspberries
blueberries
couple of handfuls of potato chips
pizza (with less than half of the crust

ok, so yeah...another somewhat of a writeoff day, due to my own poor planning. I'm not condoning my own cheating, but all I can do is what I never did before: get right back on the next day. at least I was busy all day and barely sat down at all over the course of 12 hours!

2009-06-05T14:25:00.000-07:00

whoops, forgot to blog! :D

I have pumpkin loaf in the oven so I can have some non-starch laden snack-age this weekend. this stupidly busy weekend...ack.

breakfast:
yogurt
couple of strawberries
nut bar

later:
americano w/cream & sweetener (does anyone count coffee as a snack? I've asked this before, I think. I personally wouldn't, but would YOU? :) )

lunch:
bacon
cheese

dinner:
steak
sausages
veggies
pumpkin loaf (which ended up more like a gooey cake, very good but not the portable snack I was aiming for) with HWC

power OUT!

2009-06-04T13:11:00.000-07:00

a car accident knocked the power out in my 'hood for HOURS. weirdness right here: before I went to bed, I set my cell phone as a backup alarm. I NEVER, EVER do that, and it's a good thing I did, even though I woke up in time. stupid drivers. I hope nobody was hurt.

I actually got called into work today, and the school had no power until about 20 minutes ago, apparently. so yeah...school's out today.

breakfast:
nut bar
yogurt

lunch:
bbq chicken wings (not the best option)
cheese
red pepper
strawberries (ok, 1 strawberry!)
americano w/cream & sweetener

snack (just noticed: habit to eat something right after work. must stop):
cheese
few strawberries

dinner:
steak
cheese
red pepper
nut bar

ugh, june 3 already???

2009-06-03T10:46:00.000-07:00

this year is going too quickly. it's freaking me out.

I also am finding my referee schedule to be burning me right the hell out. it was all downhill once the teams started asking us to come to their practices, when we already have two per week of our own, plus league scrimmages. blah.

breakfast:
bacon
eggs
1 mini babybel cheese

lunch:
iced espresso w/cream & sweetener
cheese
handful of nuts

snack:
few walnuts
cheese

dinner:
tiny bit of leftover turkey and cheese
salsa
yogurt
nut bar

2009-06-02T10:13:00.000-07:00

I seem to have the "please give me shit" neon sign above my head lit over the past few days. either that, or I'm just being a wimp, which is also possible-bordering-on-likely.

I've also been really lazy about exercise for the past week. if I'm feeling really down, I just can't get up the energy to do it, and it's frustrating, because exercising would, of course, help. bah.

just FYI: coconut oil in hot drinks can give a creamy mouthfeel. coconut oil in cold drinks DOES NOT. hahaha! additionally, yogurt in a smoothie/protein shake is delicious...less so when coconut oil has been added.

breakfast:
smoothie (non-homogenized organic yogurt, half scoop of greens, almond milk, coconut oil, whey protein powder, cocoa, stevia, pinch of salt, ice, splash of HWC)
few walnuts

lunch:
chicken
cheese
tomatoes
bacon bits

dinner:
turkey
salsa
sour cream
lettuce
cheese
pecans
chocolate

monday yet again!

2009-06-01T12:36:00.000-07:00

suffice to say, yesterday was a gong show. as I may have mentioned before, it was the Bad Shit Tattoo Party, a fundraising effort for safe injection sites. cheap tattoos by amazing artists at a very reputable shop. we thought ok, go down there, be done in 3 hours.

WRONG.

from arriving at the lineup until leaving with new ink took almost 8 hours. yup, EIGHT. some people were getting 4 tattoos at once, and that's what kept things s-l-o-w. so here's the math: $25 + 8 hours = 1 ninja star tattoo by the super awesome dave green.

locational dietary disaster: the shop is on a stretch of road where there was literally NO food options for a grain avoider like myself. I have the odd blood sugar issue at the best of times, and as an FYI to any tattoo virgins thinking of getting one, you cannot get one hungry. going in with low blood sugar can cause you to faint once you're done. so...yeah. the owner of the place bought everyone pizza, which unfortunately was vegetarian. and this was after 6+ hours of waiting. the other food available up until that point was little chocolate chip cookies. and I'd unfortunately had too much fruit in the morning. so suffice to say, yesterday ended up being a write-off, though really, it could have been worse, not to justify my own bad choices. I had the equivalent of maybe 2 normal sized chocolate chip cookies, and a piece of pizza that I threw away a good chunk of the crust of.

I'm getting tattooed again on sunday, but this time I'll be prepared.

breakfast:
protein shake (unsweetened vanilla almond milk, small scoop of greens, cocoa, coconut oil, stevia/inulin packet, few drops vanilla stevia, whey protein powder, ice)

lunch:
steak
coconut oil
handful of bacon flavoured Just The Cheese baked cheese (SO good)
americano w/cream & sweetener

dinner:
chicken
handful of walnuts
1 square chocolate

argh...the hormones are the ones driving today!

2009-05-30T17:23:00.000-07:00

right.

breakfast:
bacon
eggs

snack:
nuts
chocolate

lunch/snacks (post bout, I was starving and made bad choices...)
mexican dip (all legal) with about 4 tortilla chips
couple of small handfuls (literally about 2, maybe less) of chips and plain popcorn
small piece of cake (and I really do mean a small piece)
tried to balance with a couple of strawberries, some ham, and cheese...d'oh.

because I'll be all over the place tomorrow, I won't be logging my menu. I don't intend to eat crap again, but if I do, back on the wagon on monday. le sigh.

dinner:
piece of steak cooked in coconut oil
chicken thigh
salad w/ranch
(figured I'd go with fat and meat to get back on track, argh)
nuts & chocolate

later:
some coconut custard, was testing a recipe.

thinking of the weekend with knocking knees

2009-05-29T11:11:00.000-07:00

I am! too much going on, as per usual. I have practice tonight and sunday night. the kicker is that my toe blistered, then the skin under the blister blistered. I don't know if I'll be able to skate at all tonight. but the practice space tonight is cool at least, so maybe I'll just go, see what I can do, and bail if my toe is killing me. I have the option to not go at all on sunday. maybe I'll take it. dither, dither.

saturday, I have a scrimmage to ref, then a birthday party, then another party after the birthday party. I'm tired just thinking of it.

sunday, it's my mom's birthday, then I have to RUSH out to get a tattoo, then possibly practice again. gah. every damn year, there is too much going on on her birthday and it sucks. there's also a concert I want to go to that night, but I think I'm the only one who wants to go out of all my friends. meh.

breakfast:
yogurt w/brownie bits and nuts
cheese

lunch:
cheese
pork rinds w/sour cream
weird coffee protein shake (ice cubes, instant decaf, cocoa, HWC, half and half, whey protein powder, sweetener)

dinner:
peppers
cheese
weird protein shake (see lunch, minus coffee, plus coconut oil and peanut butter)

later...
1 small handful of popcorn, I'm not sure how that's going to work with me.

2009-05-28T09:21:00.000-07:00

last night's scrimmage was l-o-n-g. I'm a bit concerned about our practice spaces once the summer heat really kicks in. it's hard enough to be in them just standing there, but add hard exercise to the mix and...yech!

it's just maddening how there's NOWHERE to rollerskate in this town. we have to settle for lacrosse boxes, tennis courts, and dry-floor hockey and curling rinks when we're really lucky. oh, and this other practice space at a local university, where we have to practice during the winter, which is just barely covered and (when the snow/ice/etc kicks in) far colder than a witch's tit. not even to mention that the surface is so rough that if you skate on it in the wrong wheels, your teeth clatter. I guess that builds endurance, but man, that air shrinks your lungs. oh, for the days of several roller rinks in town. seattle skaters are SO lucky.

anyway, enough complaining!

breakfast:
bacon
yogurt w/nuts, strawberries, and a small crumbled up brownie
coconut oil
few additional nuts. heh.

lunch:
breakfast for lunch! eggs, chorizo, bacon, iced espresso w/cream & sweetener

dinner:
beanless turkey chili w/cheese & sour cream
nuts
chocolate (90% of course, blah blah blah)

I'm looking to test a couple of custard recipes. if all goes to plan, I'll be making a trifle for my mom's birthday on sunday. :)

whens-day

2009-05-27T15:18:00.000-07:00

another graze-y day for me.

breakfast...spread out over a few hours:
brownie
few nuts
americano w/cream & sweetener

lunch:
cheese
few nuts
yogurt
strawberries
brownie (small one)

dinner:
beanless turkey chili
cheese
sour cream

so it's tuesday again.

2009-05-26T09:00:00.000-07:00

skating time. my head still doesn't feel right, so I'm a bit concerned about the whole exertion/helmet combination. hopefully it'll be ok. I feel like such a colossal wimp.

breakfast:
bacon and eggs

skating: success!

lunch:
coconut water
steak cooked in coconut oil
broccoli slaw
few grape tomatoes

snack? does coffee count as a snack?:
what I wanted: iced espresso.
what I had: an odd coffee smoothie with a little heavy cream, almond milk, strong-as-balls decaf instant coffee, a little cocoa, and sweetener. oh yeah, and a scoop of protein powder, because the texture was bumming me out. and a LOT of ice. 20/30 retrospect: should have included coconut milk. duly noted.

anyway.

dinner:
chicken
gravy
cauliflower
broccoli
butter
peppers

later:
couple of big brownies MMMMMMM

ok, so I made brownies, I tweaked that recipe and they're lurvely. and lower in carbs. :)

let's play!

2009-05-25T10:13:00.000-07:00

today's game is "what I WANTED to eat vs. what I actually ate". I'll post what I felt like eating, and then what I had instead. pretty exciting, I'm sure...zzzzzz...

breakfast:
what I wanted: yogurt. or bacon. or both. and an americano.
what I actually ate: few nuts, scrambled eggs with cheese, handful of pork rinds. and a square of chocolate. I'm weak and feel like I've had the crap beaten out of me by that headache. and clearly in the mood to justify my own BS. stop looking at me like that!!! ;)

lunch:
what I wanted: nuts and chocolate. and coffee. part of me wanted a steak.
what I actually ate: see above! the chocolate is 90% cocoa, very low in carbs, and I only had one square. heh. oh, and a piece of cheese.

dinner:
what I wanted: bbq steak
what I actually ate: roast chicken, mashed cauliflower w/gravy, roasted broccolini, chocolate mousse. I was in a cooking mood. I will have steak tomorrow!

also, I just saw an interview I did before the last bout. oh my god. GROSS. I mean, I was somewhat prepared with the low camera and such, but damn...that was not very nice to see.

sunday

2009-05-24T11:28:00.000-07:00

I woke up this morning after having totally revolting dreams, and basically don't feel like being social, like the grody dreams are hanging off me like a smell. ha! of course, today I have to go to a jewelry party (which I do not want to go to), and then I have practice. which I feel nervous about, for some reason. every once in awhile, since my epic, back-injuring fall, skating rattles me. today is one of those days. but maybe I'll be over it by tonight.

edit: not only did I not get over it, my headache from the other night came back full-force and ended the practice early for me. booooo. I feel defeated. :(

breakfast:
yogurt w/crumbled nut bar and diced strawberries

lunch:
chicken
cheese
peppers
sour cream
nut bar

snack (at aforementioned jewelry party):
americano w/cream and sweetener
peppers
guacamole
chili dip

dinner:
chicken
salad
ranch dressing
nut bar (they're all finished now!)

after practice, we went to a gelato place. so rather than get one, and/or not try any at all, I tried tiny bits of several flavours that I'd never tried before. can't say it helped my headache or related upset stomach!

I ate a lot today, or so it appears. gaddamn.

lazy und graze-y

2009-05-23T19:35:00.000-07:00

so i just kind of picked today. I didn't really have a set breakfast, lunch, or dinner. ok, dinner was kind of set:

brazil nuts (1 net carb per oz vs 2 for macadamia nuts??)
strawberries
nut bars
brownie (yes, just one)
americano w/cream and sweetener
cheese
chicken
salad
ranch dressing
yogurt

I think that's it! too much on the snacky and sweet side, but it IS the weekend. ;)

btw...I'm dying laughing at this. louis ck is my favourite comedian, and this is a clip from his special, Shameless. SO FUNNY! but tons of swearing, so NSFW, and if you're easily offended, don't click: http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x2lk1m_louis-ck-clip-from-shameless_fun

fr-eye-day

2009-05-22T17:25:00.000-07:00

this has been a long week of nothing. if I'd known I was going to get 2 weeks off, I'd have planned to do something interesting. but no dice, alas.

breakfast:
bacon
eggs
brownie

lunch:
americano w/cream & sweetener
couple of strawberries
brazil nuts
small brownie

dinner:
short ribs
peppers

snack of sorts*:
small brownie
3 brazil nuts

*I got home from the scrimmage with a pretty nasty headache. advil + empty stomach = ouch, hence...wee snack. I wasn't hungry for it at all.

thirst-day

2009-05-21T11:49:00.000-07:00

so I'm finding myself in this ungood state of procrastination these days. I AM a procrastinator by nature, unfortunately, but this is bad even for me! I meant to try out Lauren's new brownie recipe last night. I made them this morning. last night's dinner will be tonight's. and I was going to go skating, but decided to wait to see if my sister wants to go, effectively delaying anything else I want to do today. AND, I just now got off the phone with her, and she doesn't want to skate because she wants go to RUNNING. sheesh...bye bye hour of my life waiting to hear back! d'oh.

breakfast:
brazil nuts
strawberries
LC brownies (even though I'm supposed to wait until they're full cool to try, they are still awesome)

lunch:
broccoli slaw
bacon
cheese
another brownie! heh.

dinner:
thai green chicken curry (homemade, with stevia)
riced cauliflower
brownie

boy, did I have seconds of the chicken. oops!

wed

2009-05-20T10:30:00.000-07:00

nesday! I'm feeling pretty cranky today. hopefully it'll lift soon.

breakfast:
handful of nuts
pound cake (it's almost finished now)

lunch:
americano w/cream & sweetener
chicken w/salad

snack:
brazil nuts
strawberries

dinner:
bbq hamburger patties w/sf ketchup and mustard
sausages (no grain, no sweetner)
veggies
sf chocolate mousse w/walnuts

tues

2009-05-19T21:22:00.000-07:00

a skating day, yeah! I'm a bit sore, but good sore.

breakfast:
egg
bacon
piece of pound cake

lunch:
steak fajitas w/salsa, guacamole, sour cream
pound cake again

dinner:
chicken
salad
americano w/cream & sweetener
still more pound cake, heh!

monday

2009-05-18T09:51:00.000-07:00

it's a long weekend here, and all I have to do today is putter around before going to a concert tonight. I wish I worked today.

breakfast:
bacon
eggs
few almonds

lunch:
broccoli slaw
cheese
strawberries & cream
low-carb, grain and sugar free pound cake

dinner:
tea w/cream & sweetener
chicken fajitas w/sour cream & salsa (no rice, beans, tortillas, etc)

oh for...

2009-05-17T09:42:00.000-07:00

so my stomach is still not behaving. this is getting really old, really fast. also, I thought I had practice tonight, but I do not, which bums me out.

breakfast:
ricotta cheese "pudding"

lunch:
americano w/cream & sweetener
smokie w/mustard, no bun (yay street meat!)

snack:
nuts
1 square 90% cocoa chocolate

dinner:
salad
ranch dressing
zucchini lasagna
er...see "snack"
strawberries & HWC

I think I need to go shopping!

2009-05-16T10:54:00.001-07:00

sorry about the width, BUT:

bwaaaaa ha ha ha ha ha!

breakfast:
cheese
cake
nuts
(great breakfast, eh? it's saturday, I'm lazy and it'll probably be graze central unless I go somewhere today)

lunch:
see breakfast, minus nuts
iced americano w/cream and sweetener

dinner:
zucchini "noodle" lasagna

2009-05-15T08:54:00.000-07:00

after eating what was a ton of vegetables at dinner, not all that long after eating nuts, I was in PAIN again last night, and couldn't even make it to see my herbalist. that REALLY sucks.

on the plus side, it's a gorgeous day. maybe I'll go skating.

breakfast:
soup
cinnamon coconut bread, again

lunch:
roast beef
coconut oil
small piece of sugar-and-grain-free cake
cheese

dinner:
chicken
salad
broccoli
aforementioned cake
americano w/cream & sweetener

oh good. and once again, cream day 1.

2009-05-14T08:40:00.000-07:00

I'm seeing my herbalist tonight for a checkup. I guess dyeing my hair and getting a pedicure, so my system will be loaded with chemicals that I normally stay away from, is a super great idea right beforehand, right? ha!

I am still pretty sore from tuesday's huge skatefest. not as sore as yesterday, thank jebus, but still pretty fricking sore.

(I keep tracking what day I have to start the herbalist's cream on here because I'm pretty bad with standard issue calendars.)

breakfast:
yogurt w/nuts and coconut
roast beef

lunch:
soup
cheese
americano w/cream & sweetener

snack (I know, I know...)
yogurt w/nuts and coconut

dinner:
chicken
roast beef (small slice...don't know why I felt I needed to specify)
salad w/homemade vinaigrette
broccoli
butter

snack:
coconut flour cinnamon bread (small piece)

I don't know what's making me rebel against my no-nuts, and today no-snack, thing. I may take my ban off sweets but keep no snacks and no seconds. then later, take the sweets back off. look at me backpedaling and justifying my own BS. hahaha...ah well. :) I don't want to drive myself insane(er), is all.

2009-05-13T15:07:00.000-07:00

I saw shoes that I loved a couple of weeks ago for $65. I seriously ached over not buying them. today, I found them and decided to just buck up and pay. my total, including tax? just over $16! holy discount batman. stores that indiscriminately put things in clearance, then take 50% off, rule.

breakfast:
eggs
bacon
ham
chorizo
coffee w/cream & stevia

lunch:
americano w/cream & stevia
yogurt (trying to get in some good bacteria after the stomach hell I went through)
nuts

dinner:
pork chop
chicken
broccoli
butter
coconut oil

I'd put a roast in the oven in the afternoon on low heat so I can eat it for the next couple of days. I had an early dinner, did a bunch of errands and went to my sister's and came home with horrible hunger pangs...so I had a small piece of the roast. maybe I shouldn't have. but I wasn't sure I'd be able to get to sleep feeling that hungry. d'oh.

feeling almost better.

2009-05-12T15:36:00.000-07:00

I'm still suffering from my epic day of carbs, a bit. so not only am I paying involuntarily, I paid voluntarily today by skating for close to 3 hours! I fear for my legs! hahaha! fun, and painful.

breakfast:
pork chops
egg

lunch:
pork chop
coconut oil
americano w/cream & sweetener

dinner:
coconut water
ground beef
salsa
cheese
sour cream
few bites of chicken
small handful of walnuts.

so they say...

2009-05-11T15:52:00.000-07:00

...that the worst cheat is the one you get away with. if that's the case, then I've had the best cheat of all time. I was up for a good chunk of the night with HORRIBLE stomach pains, and I still feel ill today. so to fix, I'm eating almost zero-carb, and tons of probiotics. back to no snacks tomorrow. I have paid.

breakfast:
ground beef
coconut oil

snack 1:
egg

snack 2:
egg
cheese

dinner:
chicken
cheese

weekend...off.

2009-05-10T21:46:00.001-07:00

ok, so saturday wasn't too horrible, I had maybe a quarter cup, max, of hashbrowns, and outside of too many nuts (damned portability), an on-plan kind of day. I walked and skated for close to 8 hours altogether. maybe a little less, but not much. now I realize why my legs and feet are so sore today.

sunday, on the other hand, was a gong show, diet-wise. I now am bloated and breaking out in rashes. I may have another cheat day in the future, but it's well and truly out of my system.

anyhoo...on to monday. :) perhaps a day of zero-carb will kick my ass into better gear.

almost d-day!

2009-05-08T09:22:00.000-07:00

d-day, as in derby day. ha! tomorrow, I will be tied up with all things derby related from about 9:30 am until at least 10 pm. I'm excited, bout days are a blast! but it's mercury retrograde, and I have a technical position. gah.

I'm still feeling anxiety attack-ish. I'm lifting my nuts-only-on-weekends rule for a bit, simply because I don't need one more thing to stress over. and because I had a few nuts at breakfast and don't want to do my usual beating up of myself. will it impact weight loss? well...everything does, food in general does, to me anyway. it just sucks, because I know eating the low-fat, high carb way makes me feel much, much worse, and also ends up in me gaining weight instead of maintaining or losing at a slug's pace. I'm frustrated, but this is simply how I eat now. hopefully my stupid body will start doing what it's always done in the past when presented with low-carb: drop weight without so much struggle. full-on cheating will land me back where I started, and I don't ever want that again.

breakfast:
yogurt
handful of nuts
chayote squash
roast beef

lunch:
roast beef (I'm redundant)
americano w/cream and sweetener

dinner:
mashed cauliflower
roast beef
cheese
nut bar

caution: another busy weekend ahead

2009-05-07T08:18:00.000-07:00

I'm trying to figure out if there's anything I can do today to make for less to do tomorrow to prepare for saturday. silliness, really, but my time tomorrow is limited. I got called into work for friday, and have a concert to go to that night, not to mention driving all over hell's half acre after work for various reasons. and I'll have NO time saturday morning at all. thanks, derby. ;)

breakfast:
eggs
cheese
salsa
sour cream

lunch:
roast beef
small handful of walnuts
americano w/cream & sweetener

dinner:
roast beef
chayote squash
mashed cauliflower

so I broke my nut rule again. I swear, they make a difference in my mood. I was feeling weird today, craving nuts like crazy, so I had maybe 5 or 6 walnuts, and felt notably better. maybe I'm lacking something they have in them. dunno. but I can't make it a daily habit.

or twice daily, and violating new dietary rules, like I did today. stupid anxiety. I wish I could say the snack didn't make me feel better, but it did. medicating with food is bad. I'm going to have nuts at breakfast tomorrow too, if I wake up anxious. lame. I hate justifying my own bullshit.

late:
1 square 90% cocoa
small handful of nuts
nut bar (I was making a batch for the bout and they were breaking up...and I'm weak. sigh.)

2009-05-06T15:29:00.000-07:00

my league has a bout on saturday. I'm already nervous about clothes, even though everything is pretty much packed and ready to go. footwear is the bane of my existence right now.

breakfast:
eggs
cheese
pepperoni

lunch:
americano w/cream & sweetener (always, always decaf)
chicken
cheese (I bought a bunch of really good cheese the other day, and am being a bit nuts with it, clearly)

dinner:
zucchini noodles
sauce w/chicken & cheese

stupid grey day

2009-05-05T15:49:00.000-07:00

crappy weather day, my mood is more suited to the sun today. ;)

breakfast:
omelet with leftover turkey taco meat, salsa, cheese, sour cream
coconut oil

coconut water (went skating, sweated my nonexistent balls off, needed to rehydrate)

lunch:
pepperoni
cheese
americano w/cream and sweetener

dinner:
chicken
salad w/dressing
broccoli w/butter
coconut oil

3 strawberries. I was at a party and didn't want to have another dinner and also didn't want to eat anything super high carb, so that was what I got away with. I'm not sure if I feel guilty or not.

day 2 of NO herbalist cream...don't forget.

2009-05-04T08:16:00.000-07:00

practice was brutal last night. the only time in my life I've ever sweated as much as when I'm skating at practices was when I was doing ashtanga yoga all the time (which basically turned me into a sweat factory).

i think the coconut water is really good for hydrating, but I balk at the carbs in it. especially since after having it at friday's practice, I was STARVING when I got home. but I didn't eat, I just went to bed. it still beats gatorade, or that nestea crap with splenda in it.

FYI...splenda kills the good bacteria in your gut. not what you want, trust me.

anyhoo!

breakfast:
eggs
roast beef
tea w/cream, stevia

lunch:
pepperoni stick
americano w/cream, sweetener

dinner:
turkey
roast beef
salsa
sour cream
cheese

where did the nice weather go?

2009-05-03T09:37:00.000-07:00

I don't know if it's like this for the rest of north america, but our weather forecasts are so inaccurate, that it's shocking. I used to listen to this one station, on AM no less, and I knew that whatever they said the next day's weather would be would be dead wrong. predicting sun? bring your umbrella. predicting rain? don't bother. anyway...yesterday was supposed to be nice (was ugly and rainy), today was supposed to rain, and so far, it's pretty good.

ah, banality. :D

so I made a batch of nut bars. eating them is a novelty now, but they just don't taste as awesome or addictive as they used to. which I'm counting as a huge win. :D and I'm supposed to be going out for lunch today, which my control freak tendencies are not looking forward to.

breakfast:
yogurt w/almond butter and a chopped up nut bar

lunch:
eggs, bacon & chorizo
few bites of hash browns (WHY? I have NO idea.)
americano w/cream & sweetener
1/2 nut bar
1 small square lindt 85%

dinner:
chicken
salad
other half of the aforementioned nut bar

coconut water

saturdaaay

2009-05-02T08:07:00.000-07:00

breakfast:
leftover pork (that would make a good band name, hahaha)
oopsie rolls w/almond butter and sf peach preserves
small handful of nuts (like 6 nuts total)

snack (breakfast was obscenely early, I couldn't sleep!):
cinnamon bun muffin and a half (which I made: coconut flour, sweetened with erythritol, xylito, stevia and 1 tsp of molasses for the entire batch)
americano w/cream & sweetener

lunch:
leftover pork
nut bar

dinner:
chicken
salad
nut bar

2009-05-01T11:00:00.000-07:00

I got totally manhandled by my chiropractor yesterday, and am sore today! ye gads.

so my weight is finally starting to creep down. snacking and desserts, which count as a second and oftentimes a third, were the culprits, I guess! I've been drinking club soda with stevia, so the taste of sweet doesn't seem to be the problem. anyway...yay! I'm sticking with the no-s. it's not painful, and I realistically should be eating that way anyway. even though I'm rarely hungry for lunch anymore.

breakfast:
steak
mozzarella cheese

lunch:
iced espresso, cream, sweetener

dinner:
pulled pork of extreme awesomeness, as i'm now calling it. it's pork tenderloin with SF peach preserves, fresh jalapeno peppers, onions, salt, etc, cooked to the point of falling apart goodness.
broccoli
red peppers

I'm also having a half-serving of coconut water, bringing it to practice. that stuff is nature's gatorade. hahahaha!

Total Calories: 1323

6%	60%	34%
Carbs	Fats	Protein

net carbs: 18.1 (thanks, coconut water)

yay!

2009-04-30T18:07:00.000-07:00

I have tickets to see the Eagles of Death Metal, who I LOVE.

I also have a mean hankering for some chocolate, and wish it were saturday in the worst way as a result.

on that note, I'm going to keep up the No-S rules, but I am going to toss out the calorie/etc tracking. I realized that when my calories end up a bit low, I feel elated, and that's not healthy or ok. when I saw today's calories finishing around the 1300 mark, I felt like high fiving myself, then felt weird about it. I'll finish with today and friday, and may do it on occasion, but as for the daily updates, no more as of this weekend.

breakfast:
eggs
roast beef

lunch:
iced americano w/cream & sweetener

dinner:
chicken
broccolini
salad
coconut oil

Total Calories: 1307

5%	65%	30%
Carbs	Fats	Protein

net carbs - 12.2

2009-04-29T12:50:00.000-07:00

the more I read about zero-carb, the better I think it is. I'm just saying. :) I'm nowhere near ready to take that step, but the more I read about it, the less worried I am about basing my diet mostly on meat. not that it's a concern, but everyone digs validation!

breakfast:
eggs
cheese
bacon

lunch:
deviled eggs w/bacon bits

dinner:
tea w/cream & stevia
chicken
salad
cheese

Total Calories: 1452

3%	73%	24%
Carbs	Fats	Protein

net carbs: 7.3

hmmmmm.

2009-04-28T08:57:00.000-07:00

I am breaking my self-imposed "nuts only on the weekend" rule today. I realized I'm going to be, once again, doing a whole lot of running around with limited time for food preparation. I might not HAVE to do it, I have some meat in the oven right now (not a euphemism, HA!), but just in case. nuts are a better on-the-go option than fast food, imo.

and as I feared, seeing my calorie counts is starting to get to me. too many years of low-cal diet programming. that one day that I went over 2000 freaked me out! I'm going to continue on with it for the rest of the week, I guess, and see how I feel about it by the weekend.

breakfast:
steak
hard boiled eggs
coconut oil

*epiphany* - I like to eat nuts when I'm stressed out! today has been disappointing, annoying, upsetting. and it's not even 1:30 yet! today, I'm the litter box, not the cat. on that note:

lunch:
boneless short ribs
mixed nuts

(annoyingly, I feel happier after eating said nuts. they're still off the menu as snacks until the weekend.)

dinner:
boneless short ribs
few more nuts

I just didn't feel like veggies today.

Total Calories: 1995

3%	65%	32%
Carbs	Fats	Protein

net carbs: 9.2

mondays just keep right on coming

2009-04-27T07:08:00.000-07:00

I am sore from practice last night! sore and with a new blister to deal with.

and now I'm done whining...for now. ;)

breakfast:
chili
eggs
cheese
sour cream
coconut oil

lunch:
hot wings
decaf americano w/cream & sweetener

dinner:
steak
salad w/dressing, etc
coconut oil

Total Calories: 1751

3%	68%	29%
Carbs	Fats	Protein

net carbs: 12.2

another busy day ahead. le sigh.

2009-04-26T10:12:00.000-07:00

I think I should stick to meat and eggs for breakfast. I like the idea of a sweet breakfast more than I actually like the breakfast itself. plus, I should have not been lazy and made bacon instead of just having cheese.

breakfast:
oopsie french toast
yogurt
xylitol syrup
butter
mozzarella cheese

lunch/snack:
coconut
almonds
2 squares lindt 90%

dinner:
salad w/tomatoes, cheese, ranch, bacon bits
turkey chili
less than 1/4 of a small roti

the roti...well, my esthetician is a lovely Indian lady, and gave me a few fresh ones, still warm. they were potato roti, which I'd never tried, so I decided to have a couple of bites. they were delicious, but I stuck with the small amounts, since I now know what they taste like. I gave the rest to my best friend. :)

saturday

2009-04-25T12:59:00.000-07:00

lucky for me, I woke up feeling queasy today, and it seems to be back a little. maybe the wedding food won't be an issue! hahaha! I probably just brought it on myself with worrying. heh.

breakfast:
2 oopsie rolls w/peanut butter and SF strawberry preserves
chicken

lunch/snack? (ended up being eaten pretty late, I'd brought the nuts to the wedding just in case)
toasted pecans & almonds
1 square of lindt 90% cocoa
1/3 chicken breast

dinner:
butter chicken
ham & turkey (deli style, one slice each)
roast beef
salad w/crappy caesar dressing
green beans
raw cauliflower & broccoli
weird cucumber/dill salad

small amounts of a lot of stuff! and all of it legal, except the dip with the veggies. it was dim, and usually it's ranch. when I got back to the table, it was a bit translucent, and tasted kind of sweet. so I ate the broccoli and cauliflower by itself. the wedding was really nice, and the reception was a total blast! and no worries about dinner, and I just stayed away from the desserts. somebody give me a medal! ;)

it's friday, I'm in love!

2009-04-24T16:18:00.000-07:00

ok, no I'm not. but it IS friday. :)

wedding tomorrow, still no idea what to wear. awesome. and this will be my last track of nutritional info for now. I kind of like seeing the analysis though, so I may keep it up on weekdays only. :)

breakfast:
roast beef
eggs
(beef and eggs = fantastic breakfast!)

lunch (?):
decaf coffee w/half and half

dinner:
roast beef
salad
grape tomatoes
mozzarella cheese
ranch dressing
bacon bits
americano w/cream & sweetener

Total Calories: 1609

2%	68%	30%
Carbs	Fats	Protein

net carbs: 11.2

2009-04-23T20:54:00.000-07:00

this is odd. when I re-inducted (can you even call it that?) last, I decided to do no sweets for three days. on the third day, I was dying for it. so now I'm trying to just do desserts (and any other sweet meal *cough*sugar free maple syrup*cough*) on the weekend only, and, ideally, not every weekend. anyhow...day 4, and I'm dying for chocolate. *shrug*

speaking of the weekend, I have a wedding to go to on saturday. this makes my palms sweat for two reasons:

1. I have nothing to wear (black dresses seem too goth for a spring wedding)
2. the food choices.

I suppose I can just resign to having a potentially off-plan meal, but I've been so damn careful. it IS on the weekend, etc, but man. I know butter chicken will be involved, I just hope it's not too rice-laden. because rice sucks.

breakfast:
roast beef
eggs

lunch:
roast beef (guess what I cooked last night?)
salad

dinner:
still more roast beef
chicken
peppers
ranch dip
broccoli w/butter, sour cream, bacon
coconut oil

Total Calories: 1487

6%	57%	37%
Carbs	Fats	Protein

total net carbs: 15.1

2009-04-22T09:50:00.000-07:00

no work today. yay/yikes!

breakfast:
brisket
eggs
coconut oil

lunch (?):
americano
cream
sweetener

dinner:
salad
mozzarella cheese
ranch dressing
chicken
broccoli
cauliflower
butter
coconut oil

totals for the day (I'll do this tomorrow and the day after too, so I have some idea of what I typically eat. just for fun, hahaah!):

Total Calories: 1391

4%	67%	29%
Carbs	Fats	Protein

total net carbs: 11.2

hellooo, spring!

2009-04-21T11:15:00.000-07:00

once the initial blast of alder pollen goes away, I can't help but be in love with the season. cherry blossoms are everywhere, you can smell the ocean and poplar trees, and the days are longer and lovely! makes me want to just be outside before summer comes and makes it too hot to stand it.

breakfast:
eggs
brisket
coconut oil

lunch:
brisket
orange peppers
ranch dip
coconut oil

dinner:
chicken
salad w/ranch dressing
caulflower
butter

just for fun, I thought I'd run this through nutritiondata.com. my supposed minimum calorie requirement is something like 1950 cal/day. I'm going to run monday through, and maybe wednesday too, and log it here, just for my own reference.

Total Calories: 1828

4%	58%	38%
Carbs	Fats	Protein

estimated glycemic load: 7

net carbs: 12.8

it seems like my omega 6's are awfully high, which surprises me. which foods are high in omega 6??

good monday...or is it?

2009-04-20T09:20:00.000-07:00

depends on who you ask (don't ask the boomtown rats!). I had an excellent practice last night, but I'm a bit sore today. when I first started with the derby league, I'd be DYING of soreness after practices, like almost to the point of having to lift my legs using my hands. I'm on the referee team now, and much to my initial surprise...we work just as hard. short story long, I'm never anywhere near as sore after practice as I was before, and I'm bordering on being proud of myself for it.

derby endurance is a different creature than others. one of the players, who is in obvious excellent shape, has endurance problems at times. her usual position is Jammer, which is the most demanding, but she's a runner in her off-skate life. she was commenting on how different it is the other day. roller skating is like jogging with weights on your feet. I thought it was interesting. :)

anyway! enough of that. time for the foodstuffs.

breakfast:
pork chops (the super thin sliced, "fast fry" type)
egg

lunch:
tuna
mayo
orange pepper

I wasn't actually hungry for lunch. it's a well-ingrained habit to eat on breaks at work, and evidently I haven't broken that one. plus, I can't have snacks now, so that's that. unless I grabbed a handful of nuts and called it lunch. oh wait...I'm trying to only eat nuts on the weekend. hahaha! guess we'll see how I go with that one...

dinner:
chicken
broccoli w/butter, sour cream, bacon
peppers
ranch dip
americano w/cream & sweetener

Total Calories: 2060

5%	61%	34%
Carbs	Fats	Protein

estimated glycemic load: 11

net carbs: 18.2

sundayyy

2009-04-19T23:21:00.000-07:00

I thought I had entered today's food! aduh.

breakfast (and lunch):
taco meat
cheese
sour cream
salsa

dinner:
sausage
chicken
steak
halloumi
peppers
cucumbers
(it was a bbq meatapalooza! small bits of everything, and everything frigging delicious!)

post-practice snack:
protein powder in water
1 bite of coconut milk pudding to kill the over-the-top dairy aftertaste. hahaha!

so this week, along with no snacks and no seconds...no desserts. except on the weekend. wish me luck!

busy day!

2009-04-18T11:01:00.001-07:00

I should have left today open. d'oh.

breakfast:
taco meat
cheese
sour cream
salsa
(didn't feel like eggs and need to finish the salsa before it goes off)

lunch? dinner? (full for HOURS after breakfast):
chicken
broccoli w/butter
orange pepper w/ranch dip
peanut butter cups (2 tiny ones)
coconut milk pudding w/pecans

on the wrong side of the bed

2009-04-17T14:48:00.001-07:00

that's where I got up this morning. yeesh.

anyhoo!

breakfast:
bacon & cheese omelet
sour cream & salsa

lunch:
chef's salad
ranch dressing

dinner:
americano (arguably the best one I've ever had in my life) with cream and sweetner

I'm calling the drink dinner. I was stuffed from breakfast for HOURS today, which I guess is a good thing.

see previous video post

2009-04-16T11:53:00.000-07:00

wwwwork is the last thing on my mind! ha!

I decided to make peanut butter cups today. no recipe, which isn't always smart. I guess we'll see how THAT works out.

breakfast:
bacon & cheese omelet
sour cream & salsa
peanut butter filling (as I said, no recipe, so I had to taste it. hehe.)

lunch:
americano w/cream & sweetener
chicken
salad
bacon bits
ranch dressing
peanut butter cups (ok, maybe making them wasn't super duper smart)

dinner:
chicken
broccoli
butter
sour cream
bacon bits
peanut butter cup (I know, I know)
americano w/cream & sweetener

no work today!

2009-04-15T11:02:00.000-07:00

thanks to my niece and nephew, I used to sing this song in my head at work (when I was in a job I hated) ALL THE TME:

now it just applies to not working. ha!

thank GOODNESS I had no work today! my throat is sore again. I thought it was from having to yell my head off on saturday (derby refereeing ain't quiet), as it started on sunday, but it's still here. including feeling weak. yay.

breakfast:
steak
coconut milk pudding w/nuts

lunch:
coconut milk pudding w/nuts
(I wasn't hungry and I'm concerned about the stuff going off. sheesh. not much left now. :) )

dinner:
chicken
salad
ranch dressing
bacon bits
broccoli
sour cream
butter
see lunch. ha!!!

and I'm back!

2009-04-14T15:53:00.000-07:00

the worst I did as far as off-plan eating goes is a few bites of bean casserole and two or three pecans off the top of a sweet potato pie during easter dinner. go me! I still feel overstuffed.

the weekend was a gong show of being too busy, and spending hours and hours in a freezing cold arena. now I have a sore throat! so excited! ;)

I made a big zucchini noodle lasagna, and am trying to eat it before it goes off.

oh, and I'm trying to cut out snacks.

breakfast:
aforementioned lasagna
chayote w/sweetner, almonds & coconut
hwc

lunch:
see breakfast, minus cream and chayote
couple of slices of roast beef

dinner:
see lunch. the lasagna is now finished!
coconut milk pudding (I'm not cutting weekday desserts until next week! hehe!)

weekend off!

2009-04-10T09:02:00.000-07:00

not off from my eating plan, off from logging food. :) I'm going to be too busy and running around (and away from a computer) for most (read: probably all) of the weekend to remember everything I eat and log it. :) if I have something pressing to say, I probably will, but as for what I'm consuming, I won't be able to worry about it at length this weekend.

so yeah! happy easter! :) see ya on monday.

babysitting...

2009-04-09T09:18:00.000-07:00

...instead of working. my lovely 7 yr old nephew is sick, so here I am. rock you like a hurricane. ha!

breakfast:
nut bar
granola
yogurt

lunch:
zucchini "noodle" lasagna
nut bar

dinner:
turkey chili on a pork chop (meat o rama!)
nut bar

2009-04-08T15:41:00.000-07:00

day 2 of 12 of not using the herbalist's cream. god, that sounds so cryptic.

breakfast:
coconut muffin
roast beef
havarti
mustard

lunch (graze-y lunch, my worst thing, little bits of each):
chicken
roast beef
cheese
peanuts & peanut butter on celery

dinner:
turkey chili
sour cream
cheese
coconut cheese bread
nut bar

yeesh

2009-04-07T07:03:00.001-07:00

so I saw my friend on the weekend, who was complaining about being sick. it sounded like he had the stupid flu I just had, so I didn't think TOO much of him talking to me, right in my face, in a loud bar. my voice is screwy today and my throat itches. YAY, oh good, please let this be a new cold! because I just haven't had enough between the alder pollen and the ever-morphing hellflu. really. I need to have my yelling voice back/on by saturday.

hahaha, whine whine whine.

breakfast:
coconut flour muffin (yeah, I need to get some bacon!)
peanut butter
butter
sf strawberry preserves
coconut milk pudding

snack:
macadamia nuts

lunch:
see breakfast, minus pudding, plus bocconchini. talk about unsatisfying. I didn't have any time to cook anything yesterday that I could have had today, and forgot I still had meat cookies. what a drag. I wonder if they're still ok.

snack (after an impromptu 45 minute skate, whew):
roast beef

dinner:
chicken
broccoli
salad
ranch
1 square chocolate
walnuts

siiiigh...

2009-04-06T07:20:00.000-07:00

this is the last week of my short assignment, and I'm completely bummed out about it. :(

breakfast:
coconut muffin, split
on one half: roast beef, havarti, mustard
on the other: peanut butter, sf strawberry preserves

lunch:
broccoli, cauliflower, celery w/ranch dip
buffalo chicken wings
americano w/cream & sweetner

snack:
nuts

dinner:
steak
salad w/ranch dressing
coconut milk pudding
square of dark chocolate

another sunday

2009-04-05T10:40:00.000-07:00

the drum workshop was super cool, albeit too long and blister-producing.

breakfast:
coconut muffin
butter
SF strawberry preserves
peanut butter
americano
cream & sweetner

once again, my day got crazy and I had no time to update, so hopefully I'm not missing anything:

lunch:
coconut muffin
havarti
roast beef
mustard

snack:
macadamia nuts

dinner:
chicken
mashed cauliflower
coconut milk pudding

drum workshop day!

2009-04-04T08:41:00.000-07:00

this should be interesting for on-plan eating. and by INTERESTING, I mean "packing my own lunch to a lunch-provided thing".

there's a tattoo convention happening in town in a couple of weeks, and I want to go in the worst way. I also want to get tattooed by corey miller in the worst way, but that's looking impossible. le sigh. I'll just have to be satisfied with gawking at him. hrmph.

breakfast:
"english muffin"
yogurt
nuts
granola

the rest of the day (can't remember exactly what I ate when, so here's the list):
1/2 pastrami sandwich on coconut roll
veggies (tomatoes, broccoli, cauliflower, mashed cauliflower, peppers, lettuce, snow/snap peas {not sure which} cucumber)
chicken
strawberries
coconut milk pudding

seriously...let me sleep.

2009-04-03T10:52:00.000-07:00

I was going to get up early to see my doctor today about how over-the-top tired I am ALL THE TME. my neighbours helped me out by waking me up BEFORE 530 am. ye gads. then, I went to the doctor (in another part of town) only to find out that he's taken today off. jackass. so I'm pretty unimpressed with today so far.

breakfast:
yogurt
nut granola (as if I'd eat a grain one)
leftover beef shortribs

snack:
americano w/cream & sweetner
coconut milk pudding

lunch:
chicken, pesto, tomato, mozzarella sandwich on coconut english muffin
yogurt & nuts (the sandwich was NOT satisfying)

dinner:
chicken thighs (guess why? chicken thigh!)
salad
ranch dressing

I've had two naps, and I'm thinking I'm due for #3. gawwwd.

let me sleep!

2009-04-02T11:13:00.000-07:00

please!

seriously...I'm concerned about my fatigue levels. I went to the chiropractor today and then had a LONG-ass nap. I'm ready for another nap and then a good night's sleep. tomorrow morning, I'll go see my (hot) doctor.

breakfast:
meatloaf
coconut muffin

snack:
homemade mounds
1/2 nut bar (and they're DONE for now, thank goodness! too good for me.)

dinner:
boneless short ribs in homemade bbq style sauce
big salad
ranch dressing
coconut milk pudding
HWC

happy april fool's day!

2009-04-01T17:16:00.000-07:00

or not...hahaha! it was a waste of a day/gong show for me. which resulted in a less than great breakfast and lunch. I had to wait at the DMV again, all damn day, and forgot to bring snacks. by the time I got home, I was starving and grabbed the first low-carb friendly things I found.

breakfast:
sausage & egg mcmuffin on a coconut flour muffin

lunch:
nut bar
yogurt & granola

dinner:
meatloaf
broccoli
butter
homemade mounds bar

snack:
slice of roast beef
coconut milk chocolate pudding

day 12...

2009-03-31T07:38:00.001-07:00

...of my herbalist's cream. last day for now. just making a note of it. :)

breakfast:
worst omelet ever
almond flour biscuit

snack:
1/2 nut bar
peppers
snap peas
cucumber
maybe 1/2 teaspoon spicy hummus
(someone in the office FINALLY brought veggies instead of chocolates!)

lunch:
roast beef
1 bite of cheese that ended up being just horrendous
nut bar (still haven't gone shopping)

snack:
granola
HWC

dinner:
chicken
broccoli
butter
coconut milk chocolate pudding w/hwc

les 'ormones are a-raging.

so.

2009-03-30T08:08:00.001-07:00

not much to say right now!

breakfast:
roast beef
yogurt
granola
chayote

lunch:
it was at this point that I realized that I have NO veggies left! must shop.
chayote
roast beef
nut bar

snack:
granola
bit of hwc

dinner:
see snack
roast beef

must shop.

at meeting:
3 strawberries
snap peas
handful of nuts (gotta get a handle on nut consumption, I think)

slumday?

2009-03-29T09:20:00.000-07:00

I'm mentally bracing my nails for the onslaught of wheel and bearing changes.

breakfast:
chocolate granola (sweet merciful crap, is that stuff good)
yogurt
roast beef

lunch:
yogurt
granola

snack:
bocconchini

dinner:
chicken
roast beef (I made one. or rather, cooked one!)
chayote squash
nut bar

unneeded emotional-eating snack:
2 stinkin' homemade coconut bars. I'm trying not to feel too bad about myself for eating them...but I do. :(

sale day!

2009-03-28T10:55:00.001-07:00

my favourite skate shop is having a big-ass sale today and I'm pretty excited! I want to buy out the store! oh unbridled avarice!

I've been just exhausted the past few days. like, really, truly, horridly tired. I know I'm not pregnant, thus my iron must be low yet again. stupid genetics. it's not helping my mood at all. so I'm craving chocolate. not even sweet chocolate, just chocolate. weird.

breakfast:
yogurt
nut/seed granola
few bites nut bark (should have broken it up and frozen it as soon as it was set, goddammit)

lunch (this one was kinda graze-y):
americano w/cream & sweetener
roast beef
dry pepperoni
bocconchini
few more bites of nut bark (I shouldn't make this again.)

dinner:
steak
salad w/bocconchini
homemade mounds bar

later: chocolate granola. just enough to try it a little.

the weekend draws nigh!

2009-03-27T15:57:00.000-07:00

I spent the morning babysitting, and on an unrelated note, now have an evil, evil headache. and am in the mood to COOK.

breakfast:
granola
yogurt
meat cookies

lunch:
sugar and grain free sausages
1/2 turkey burger patty
cheese
mustard

snack:
almonds
1 square chocoperfection (corn sources be damned)

dinner:
chicken
salad
cauliflower w/butter

it's thursday again.

2009-03-26T08:00:00.000-07:00

yay.

I just choked down a piece of cheese and my supplements. I'm going to be stuck at the DMV for an unknown amount of time, and am not happy about it at all. in fact, I'm downright cranky about it. WHY do they have to make all things relative to driver's licenses such an absolute chore? not only is it the DMV, it's the shitty DMV. the nice one isn't an option today. and the worst of it is, it isn't MY license.

I think it was immanuel kant who said that people who willingly, happily do the right thing because a good deed is its own reward, or they get a payoff of sorts from it, aren't as virtuous as those who do the right thing despite almost being in physical pain over it because they don't want to so much (paraphrased roughly, and I hope that made sense). well, by that logic, I am pretty damn virtuous this morning.

"breakfast":
cheese
homemade mounds bar (out of grab and go options!)

lunch:
bacon cheeseburger on oopsies (lettuce, tomato, mayo, mustard)
salad

snack:
homemade no-grain peanut butter granola
yogurt

dinner:
beef stroganoff...kind of
peppers

2009-03-25T10:31:00.000-07:00

I feel so bloody puffy today. I'm trying to figure out why. I had a little extra water yesterday, but maybe the mexican food was a lot saltier than I thought? maybe it's an ovulatory (new word alert) thing? I can feel it in my face, hands, and feet. yech. I guess I'll try to have a good, fat-laden day. ;)

I had an incredible time at the show last night. so worth the soulcrushing lack of sleep. :)

breakfast:
deviled eggs w/bacon
coconut oil

lunch:
americano
cream & sweetner
handful of walnuts
few bites homemade vanilla custard

dinner:
stewed beef
chicken
salad
broccoli w/butter
custard w/coconut

maybe I should post amounts? it always sounds like so much more than it is.

2009-03-24T07:52:00.001-07:00

I'm going out of town for the evening to catch a concert. I guess I'll have to trust dinner to a restaurant. ugh, I can't believe this makes me nervous! hahaha! too used to cooking for myself.

breakfast:
eggs
bacon
cream cheese
almond flour biscuit w/peanut butter and xylitol honey

lunch (this is what I'm bringing, but we'll see how my appetite is):
oopsies
steak
nut bar

we went to a mexican buffet last night, so I tried a little of a lot of things (and a goodly amount of lettuce):
chipotle chicken (had maybe a tablespoon, which is good because i'm pretty sure it had sugar)
beef (see above brackets)
smoked/roasted chicken
beef fajitas
peppers
salad
guacamole
pico de gallo
sour cream

I think that was it. in the car, 3 of us split 2 of the nut bars.

moonday

2009-03-23T07:27:00.000-07:00

I am tired and disenfranchised. the cream my herbalist put me on isn't having the desired effect of making me happy. I think that insufficient sleep and waking up to the radio playing sam roberts (who I despise) probably has more to do with it than the cream not working. ha!

breakfast:
roast pork
yogurt
chayote squash
nuts
almond butter
sweetner

lunch:
chicken
peppers
nut bar

snack:
nut bar (shoosh!)

dinner:
steak
almond flour biscuits
salad
homemade mounds bar

whoa, busy!

2009-03-22T18:09:00.001-07:00

I was on the go all day today, and now I'm wiped. sleep sucked last night.

breakfast:
yogurt
nuts
chayote squash
americano
cream
sweetner

lunch:
oopsie rolls
turkey
mayo

snack:
1/2 nut bar :)
cheese

dinner:
chicken
chayote squash (I'm addicted)
broccoli
sour cream
bacon
cheese
nut bar (addicted to these too, apparently)

so I'm starting to notice...

2009-03-21T08:55:00.001-07:00

...that I like to eat the same thing pretty often. if I make a big batch of something, I'll pretty well eat it for consecutive days, if not consecutive meals. I never thought about it before! heh.

busy day today, I have an event for my derby league to deal with, and then the rest of the day to have pre-planned fun. :D

breakfast:
1/2 nut bar (with which to take supplements before running a pre-breakfast errand)
meat cookies (still tortures me)
yogurt
chayote squash
almond butter
pecans
walnuts
it sounds like a lot more than it actually was. :)

snack:
americano
cream

lunch:
another nut bar (I'll get sick of them one day)
"mini mignons" - pieces of steak wrapped in bacon. pre-made. most non-delicious and disappointing.

dinner:
well...another nut bar. time is short and I can't cook anything as a result. gaaah.